Episode 2.

So, two days later a new video appeared.  The camera and background were the same as Kim launched into part two of her story.

“So, when my husband woke up from a coma on life support from having a major brain aneurysm I was at the bank signing papers for the house we had just purchased.  Did I mention that I could hardly walk at the time?  I had developed a case of rheumatoid arthritis and I could not navigate the stairs of our rental.  So, we bought a house that would be easier for me to navigate.  At the time, he was working from home as much as possible.  He bathed me, helped me get dressed, cooked, did much of the house work.  He was my rock.  And the house we were buying for me?  He was going to be the one that ended up needing it.

So, I am at the bank signing papers when I got the call from the hospital.  There was screaming on the other line that he was awake.  I hit my knees in the middle of the bank.  Because my next planned stop after leaving the bank was the hospital.  To remove him from life support.  After regaining my composure I raced to the hospital.

I was so excited to see my husband.  To talk with him.  To laugh about all of this”. Kim shook her head and continued “no.  He was a vegetable.  I tried to hug him.  To talk to him.  Nothing.  At the time, I did not know anything about brain injuries.  One of the doctors sat me down and explained it was a miracle that he was awake, but he would never be capable of human interaction or connection again.  That he was likely blind.  That he would never be able to read, write or speak.  That these were the parts of his brain that had been affected.  He said my husband, my rock, would not understand what I said to him.  That he would never walk again.  That it was very likely that he would never move much at all ever again.

He explained that we were at the beginning of a marathon.  And he was right.”

So this is a little bit different than most of the stories here I think.  Definitely a little different than anything I have done.  And I have been putting off starting it for awhile worried it might be a train wreck.  Or too complex.  But maybe it will work.  And readers will enjoy it.  At least that is my hope.

Thank you Braceface.  I believe many on here aspire to be, if not great writers, at least bearable writers.

Episode 4.

The fourth video opened once again with Kim staring into the camera.  She wasted no time launching into her narrative.

“So, after about a month, my husband was able to breath on his own, sit up, and be transferred in and out of bed into a wheelchair.  The decision was made to transfer him to another rehabilitation center, one more focused on relearning life skills instead of just trying to keep them alive.  The transfer went smoothly.  And what a wonderful place it was.

I want to now stop and thank all therapists out there.  You are all heroes.  This new facility would be his home for several months.  Every day he had speech therapy, physical therapy and occupational therapy.  Much of the rest of the time he spent sleeping, just because it wiped him out so much.

Again, I need to thank everyone there.   You are incredible.  Not only do you help restore function, you also help restore dignity to those that have had so much taken from them.  They never treated him like a child.  They involved me and the boys in his therapy.  They were supportive of us, and literally worked miracles with him.  They were truly incredible.  Peter made so much progress.  After a month, he was able to get around in a wheel chair.  And he was able to feed himself. Normal food. To get dressed.  To use the bathroom himself.  He had progressed so far beyond what the doctors had initially said was possible.  He was relearning to read and write and speak.  The only thing that hampered efforts were the fact that Peter’s native language is German.  And I learned that with stroke and brain injury victims that usually a person’s native language is the first to return.  Which made it harder since no one in their speech therapy department was fluent in German.  But I am.  So over that last month I was very involved in his speech therapy sessions.  And while we were primarily working in German, one day he uttered “tree.”  So now, we had to work on speech therapy in two languages.  It was hard on him.  But he did so good.  I was so proud of him.  And then, they said he was ready to go home.  After over 4 months at three different facilities, my husband was coming home.  But that will be for the next episode.  But don’t worry, I have already recorded it.”

Waiting for the braces ! :

Episode 6.

It was two days before there was another video.  Once again, it started with the same background as before.  After smiling at the camera, Kim began speaking.

“So, for everyone watching this, thank you.  And thank you again for your support.  Your well wishes.  And also for your tips and tricks about braces.  There have been a lot of questions too.  So, in the next day or two, I will make a video explaining what I am having done.  And why I am having to do it.  But first, back to my family’s story.

As I stated in my last video, we made the decision that the best thing for Peter was for him to relocate to Germany.  We had actually gone there once before after the aneurysm.  And he just came alive there.  His parents are wonderful.  The most caring and loving people.  And did I mention his mother is a retired doctor?  She is.  And when we were there, it just felt like this was where he belonged.  But what about the boys?  And thus me.  Because I was and am tied to my boys.

At this point, I need to go even further back in time.  To the day we prepared our wills.  I mentioned how neither of us wanted to be kept alive by machines.  There is a little backstory there.  Peter was insistent that day that if anything ever happened to him, he wanted me to let him go and move on with my life.  I was floored.  And horrified.  I couldn’t even imagine life without him.  He wanted me to promise him.  We quarreled about it the rest of the day because I refused to do so.  But now, I realize he was right.  And maybe even a little pre-cognitive.

It took a few years, but I realized the fairest thing for him was for him to be in his home country near his family and parents.  But what about me?  And our two sons?  Who by now are 5 and 8 and both in school.  With friends.  Was it fair to uproot their lives?

After a lot of prayer, discussion, and tears I made my decision.  I would not relocate the boys to Germany.  However, I wanted to plan the time of the transfer for the summer.  So, we scheduled the move for June.  And we, me and the boys, would spend the summer in Germany with Peter and his family.  This would be positive for all us.  I thought it would help Peter settle into his new situation.  And it would allow us to spend time with Peter.

I want to reiterate we loved Peter.  We still love Peter.  But sometimes, life is just not fair.  To access all of the health and social benefits available to Peter, and for me to be able to live my life here, I had to divorce him.  Or at least be in the process of doing so.  And Peter had to become again a citizen of Germany, with no spouse to support him.  When we started the process of the divorce, we went with an uncontested divorce.  There is a list of reasons, and you have to choose one.  None of them really fit our situation.  But, we had to pick one.  We went with “excessive cruelty”.  No, not excessive cruelty from either Peter or I.  But excessive cruelty from life.

So anyway, after starting the process, and a lot of other preparations, the day of our flight to Germany quickly arrived.  Peter’s mother and father both flew to the states to escort us all back over to Europe.  They were a huge help.  Peter, the best he could, understood what was happening.  And while there was some sadness on his part, there was even more excited.  The whole situation was so conflicting.  But I felt like I had made the best decision for all of us.  Sometimes there is not a great solution for a problem.  There is just a “best” solution.  I think this was the best solution.

So, the flights to Germany went smoothly.  The process of getting settled in was surprisingly easy. The facility that Peter moved into, and is still at, is wonderful.  So wonderful.  And while I had spent some time in Germany, our boys had not.  They had an incredible time.  I could spend a whole video talking about everything we did.  All we saw.  But we involved Peter as much as possible.  I had some wonderful time with Peter.  Our sons also had some incredible time with their father.  And I believe we all made some very good memories.  But time waits for no one.  And eventually, the summer drew to a close   With a lot of tears, we all said our goodbyes.  That was almost a year ago.

So, how are we now?  We are all wonderful.  Myself, my boys, and maybe most importantly Peter are doing great.  Is he the old Peter?   No, and he will never be the old Peter.  But he is still a wonderful man.  And as I mentioned earlier, I do still love him.  You may be wondering do we all still talk?  And see each other?  The answer is absolutely.

I speak with Peter via phone once or twice per week.  And we all facetime; he, myself, and our boys; at least once a month.  Sometimes more.  And we spent the Christmas holidays there. And we will spend some of our summer vacation in Germany.  I plan to do this for, well, forever I guess.  Is it perfect?  No.  Are our lives like I had once envisioned them?  No.  Do I think we have made the best of a horrible situation.  I do.

So back to the divorce.  While we started the ball rolling last year, I couldn’t bring myself to finalize it.  But I had to; we had a year.  And that window was quickly closing.  So last week, I signed the final paperwork.  I was so sad.  I am so sad.  But I also know that it was for the best.  For all of us.  And maybe these videos have been my coping mechanism.  If so, that is fine.  They are a much healthier coping mechanism than the drinking I used in my darkest times.  And you might say “surely this is all just a made up story!”.  Really?  How could someone even make this up. 

Anyway, I honestly can not believe I got through our story in only six videos.  I was certain it would take many more.  And I did leave out lots of details.  But I don’t think I left out any critically important ones. 

And I will apologize.  At times, I felt very disjointed.  That I rambled.  But maybe you understood what I was trying to say.  And thank you for listening.  As hard as it was to talk about, I think it helped me to come to terms with everything. 

I promise I will do a video about my whole orthodontic nightmare.  But until then, fair winds and following seas. Bye bye.”

Episode 7.

The next day another video appeared.  It opened with Kim smiling broadly into the camera, showing off her crowding.  Before she began talking, she opened her mouth and tilted her head back, displaying her very narrow upper arch.  As well as the four blue spacers between her molars and premolars.  She then tilted her head down and displayed her narrow lower arch.  And the blue spacers there as well.  Finally, she closed her mouth and turned her head to the side, showing her face in profile.  Her severe class III underbite and very prominent chin were obvious.  She was a very pretty woman.  But, all the same, it was apparent that her smile could use some work.  She turned back towards the camera and began talking.

“So, I promised you all a video about why I am getting braces.  And oh so much more.  As you could see, maybe if you didn’t even realize it, is that I have a very narrow mouth.  Way too narrow.  And I have a severe crossbite.  And no one can miss my underbite and chin.  All of this has caused me issues.  All of this is causing me issues.  I won’t talk about my childhood.  But I was never able to get this fixed when I was younger.  So now, I have no choice but to do it myself.

I have TMJ, popping of my jaw.  And it is destroying my jaw joints.  And it causes me severe headaches.  I have almost daily headaches.  Some are debilitating.  But there is more.  Because of the way my bite is aligned, and how my teeth hit, I have premature wear on a number of teeth.  I have even cracked a couple, which I have had to have repaired.

I have suffered from this for years, though it has gotten worse recently.  I should have addressed this and fixed it years ago.  But with everything going on, I didn’t have the time, or money, or energy to face it.  But over the past few months things have gotten worse, to the point I have no choice but to address it.  To bite the bullet so to speak.  And to see what I needed to do.

To start, I had consultations with two orthodontists.  Each told me I needed braces and jaw surgery.  Jaw surgery with a significant recovery and down time.  And it is crazy expensive.  I can’t do this as a single mom.  And even if I wanted to, I can’t afford surgery.  I recently consulted with a third orthodontist.  She told me she was confident she could fix me up without surgery.  But she cautioned it would be a long process.  And that I might still need a minor surgery, though it wouldn’t be as intensive or debilitating as the procedures the other doctors had prescribed.  Or nearly as expensive.  But she said she didn’t think I would need it, but she did want to mention it.   So how long will this take?  We are talking three to four years.  And it will be a grueling process.  Because in order to avoid surgery, I need a LOT of gadgets.  I prefer to call them gadgets.  That doesn’t sound nearly as intimidating and scary.  So what are all these gadgets?

To start, in two days I will be getting upper and lower expanders bonded into my mouth.  There will be metal rings, or molar bands as she called them, around my molars. They will go where those little blue things you might have seen in my mouth are.  Those are the Devil spacers.  They are making room between my teeth for the bands.   And then there are arms that will run to the actual screw mechanisms.  My lower one will only be glued in, with the screw behind my lower teeth.  But the upper one?  Because I am adult and because I am dead set on avoiding surgery, it will be both glued into my mouth and screwed into it.  There will be four screws that go through holes near the main crank, which will be in the middle of my palate, and into the roof of my mouth.  The screws are scary long.  They showed me an example of the screws.  And one of Dr. Parker’s; that is who my orthodontist is; assistants is going through the process herself and has one screwed into her mouth. She showed it to me.  She was very frank and earnest with me that it is tough.  Definitely not a cake walk.  That I would have a lisp or speech impediment as she does.  Likely even worse as she only has an upper expander and not a lower too.  But she assured me that it is worth it.  So, I am going to do it.  I have to do something.

But wait!  There is more.  On the upper expander, on the outside of the molar bands, there will be hooks.  I will have to hook elastics to these and wear a reverse pull headgear for 12-16 hours a day.  For at least a year.  Maybe more.  Cassie, that is Dr. Parker’s assistant who is also doing it, showed me hers.  And modeled it for me.  It looked so barbaric.  She said it wasn’t that bad.  But I don’t believe her.  And mine will be even worse.  Because Dr. Parker wants to try to reduce the prominence of my chin, the outside of my chin cup, the part of the reverse pull headgear that will cup and cradle my chin, will also have hooks on the outside of it.  I will have to wear a strap around the top and back of my head that will attach to this chincup.  Dr. Parker showed me an example of it, and explained that it is simply a high pull headgear strap she has slightly modified to be compatible with the headgear.  She said she didn’t often use it, because it is so rough on patients, but I really need it.  And she said if it made me feel better, I wouldn’t be the only one to ever have to wear one.  Or be the only one wearing one now.  Dr. Parker said her own mom, who is in treatment currently too, has to wear one.  And Dr. Parker assured me that, even though it isn’t the most comfortable nor flattering fashion piece, she is managing with it.  So, yeah, I have that to look forward to. 

And finally, and this seems almost anti-climatic, I will get metal brackets on my lower teeth.  Later on, I will need a second expander on my top.  My arch is SO narrow.  We will max out my first expander.  They will then make a new one and replace my old one with it.  And I will expand more.  During expansion, they warned me I will have all kinds of gnarly gaps between my teeth.  Yay me.  She cautioned me that it might look like things are getting worse instead of better for a year or more.  But that is all part of the process.  Finally, when expansion is done in 12-16 months, I will get my upper braces on.  The only good news is that when that happens I will get the arms cut off my upper expander.  And then in another 6 months or so I will have the expanders removed completely.  And then I should “just” have braces for another 18-24 months.  We will see I guess.  Because while I am terrified of this.  And hate the whole idea of it.  I am committed to do it.  I have no choice.

On another note, I mentioned I was never able to have orthodontic treatment when I was younger, I am NOT making that mistake with my boys.  They will be starting orthodontic treatment over the next few months.  So, we will be the three musketeers in braces, expanders, headgears, all kinds of gadgets.  I am going to have to put on a brave face.  I sure don’t want for them to think it is a big deal.  That it is horrible.  Or something to dread.  THAT may be one of the hardest things about this.  Because I know it will be horrible. Heck, Dr. Parker and Cassie said as much, maybe they just didn’t use those exact words.  So, wish me luck.  And if I make a video in the future where I completely break down, please excuse me.  I don’t know how much I will be on camera from here on.  I am already feeling so self conscious about all of this.  And I haven’t even gotten my gadgets yet.  But in less than 48 hours…. Well, I am going to try to not think about it.  Once again, thank you all for listening.  Bye!”

Episode 9.

It was 8 days before another video appeared.  Once again, it was the same format as all the previous videos.  Kim looked into the camera and smiled.  She then began speaking.

“Sho,  thish video will be short.  I am shtill learning to shpeak.  But I wanted to let you know I am still alive.  Talking ish hard.  Eating ish hard.  Everything ish hard.  Everything hurtsh.  But it hash gotten a little better.  I know I shound ridiculoush.  But you should have heard me the firsht few daysh.  No, better you didn’t.  You wouldn’t have been able to undershtand me.  So, I got everything installed that I described.  And it ish as bad ash I feared.  Here, I will give you a quick look.”

Kim pulled her lower lip down showing the metal brackets on her lower teeth.  They had light grey ligatures on them.  She then pulled the corner of her mouth back, showing her upper and lower molar bands. And the hooks that extended off the upper bands.  She then opened her mouth and angled her head down, showing the arms and screw of her lower expander.  When she had spoken earlier, it had just been visible above her lower teeth. She then leaned her head back.  In the roof of her mouth the arms and large crank of the expander were visible, along with the screws that anchored it to the roof of her mouth.  She looked back into the camera and smiled.  Her lower lip covered most of her brackets, but they were still just visible.  And in the corners of her mouth on top you could see the shiny expander hooks. She relaxed her mouth, though her lower lip appeared a little puffy with the still relatively new braces pushing it out.

“Sho, there it all ish.  Well, almost all of it.  I can’t believe I am about to do thish.”  She reached over and brought a blue Petit facemask into view.  “So, this is my reverse pull headgear.”  She took two elastics and attached it to her face.  She then added two more elastics, this time crossing them across the mask  “Ridiculoush huh?  Well it getsh worshe.”  She pulled a black high pull headgear strap with white plastic perforated strips into view and slid a mirror over.  Staring into the mirror, she placed the strap over the top of her head.  It clashed with her blond hair. She then, first right and then left, attached the perforated plastic strips to the chincup of her facemask.  She looked back into the camera.

“Sho; thish makesh talking even harder.  I can’t really open my mouth.  And it is so hard on my chin.  It hurtsh so bad.  But here I am.  I am alive.  And trying to make the besht of thish.  I don’t know how much more I will update.  But as alwaysh, thank you.”

The next morning she woke up.  She sat up on the edge of the bed.  She first removed the high pull headgear strap from her head and placed it on the nightstand.  She then removed the elastics from her mask and placed the mask down beside the headgear strap.  She picked up her glasses and slid them onto her face.  Able to see once again she picked up her phone and saw she had one text message from Dr. Anderson.  She didn’t open it.

She walked into the kitchen, silently dropping her four used elastics into the trash.  She then tiptoed up behind the man that was busy at the stove.  She wrapped her arms around him and laid her head against his back. He put the spatula down and placed his hand on hers.  She softly asked “Peterbabe, what have I done to desherve breakfasht?”

I sense there is more going on than you have told us so far. 

little bit confused about the last part

That might have been a ruse: To invent a sob-story to attract more views.

And the confusion; or I prefer to say suspense; over what is going on might be intentional.  But there may also be a few clues scattered in throughout the story.  Maybe even in the title.  They might be clearer after the fact, but they are still there.  The idea for this story originally had no braces content, but who wants that?

Episode 13.

After they had made their way into Dr. Anderson's office and had all gotten comfortable, they spent a minute or two exchanging pleasantries.  Then, Dr. Anderson looked at Sarah and asked "Sarah, so how goes it with the orthodontic treatment?  I know when we met last month, you were feeling some trepidation.  But also a lot of excitement.  I know it is something you always wanted to do." 

Sarah responded "well, thish firsht week; well a little over a week; hash been a challenge.  I have sho much going on in my mouth.  I have thish horrible lishp.  I can jusht now barely eat.  My lipsh hurt.  The screwsh in my palate hurt. Turning my expandersh hurtsh.  The headgear hurtsh. Everything hurtsh.  But pain is beauty right?  And I am not even doing thish for beauty really.  I hope thish stopsh my headaches.  So, despite all that, I am still very happy I am doing it."  Dr. Anderson looked at Peter and asked him "and Peter, what about you?  Everything ok?  Happy about your decision?"

Peter said "I have it a lot easier than Sarah.  I only have regular old braces on bottom and invisalign on top.  Now, I do have some headgear I have to wear at home; not a fan by the way; but only at home.  And Sarah likes it.  To be honest, if it weren't for Sarah, I would have never done this on my own.  But, I am glad I did it.  And I am glad it makes her happy."  Dr. Anderson looked over at Sarah and asked "so, you like Peter's braces?"

Sarah turned a little red.  She said "yesh of course.  They are helping him fix a bite issue neither of ush even realized he had.  Fixing it before it becomesh a big deal.  Like with me.  I love hish smile.  I alwaysh have.  But he does have a couple of lower teeth that are kind of doing their own thing.  They are adorable.  But they might even be more adorable if they get in line with their neighborsh.  I am such a lucky woman to have such a wonderful husband.  To not only pay for my treatment, but alsho to join me in hish own.  And I will be the lucky girl that gets to enjoy the new and improved version of hish smile too."  She reached over, patted Peters arm, and smiled at him.  He smile back at her.  Dr. Anderson asked her "so, you just like them because of their functionality?  There isn't something more?  Something deeper?"

Sarah sat there in silence a moment before she asked "why would you think that?"  Dr. Anderson replied "just a hunch.  And it seems like Kim hates them.  Or she would hate them.  And I know you two are complete opposites.  So, I am just wondering if there is something more there.  And remember, I always ask you to be completely honest and open."

Sarah went silent for a minute.  Peter reached over and took her hand.   He looked at her and said "it's nothing to be embarrassed about baby.  It is charming in fact.  Why don't you tell him?"

Sarah sheepishly looked up at Dr. Anderson.  She said "yes, there is more.  I can't explain it.  But I think they are so sexy on him.  I mean, I like my braces.  But, I LOVE his."  Dr. Anderson simply replied "interesting."  He sat thinking for a moment before he asked Peter "so, I take it she has told you about this already.  When did she tell you?"

Peter replied "about 6 months ago, when Sarah started seeing orthodontists for consultations.  She was so insistent I see them too.  I didn't quite understand it.  Honestly, I was almost a little insulted.  I mean, I wondered if she thought my smile was hideous or something.  I questioned her about it, and she told me why.  So, how could I say no?  If something so simple and harmless could make her happy, I had to say yes.  I mean..."   It was at this point that Sarah interrupted Peter.

She looked at Dr. Anderson and asked "why did you bring up Kim?  She ish long gone.  We banished her to partsh unknown, what, nine yearsh ago.  After the, umm... incident.  Why did you bring her up?"

Dr. Anderson probed "so, you have seen no signs of Kim lately?"  Sarah said "no, absolutely not.  I religiously take my medication.  And I do all the exercises you ashk me to do.  The last thing I want ish Kim in our livesh.  She ISH NOT a part of it.  She is not allowed to be a part of it.  I will not let her be.  She ish long gone."

Dr. Anderson said "Sarah, please try not to get upset.  But I want to show you something."  He spun the large computer monitor on his desk around so it was facing Sarah and Peter.  The screen was black, in sleep mode.  He clicked the mouse, and the screen lit up.  On it was a Youtube video; Sarah's pretty face stared back at her.  Dr. Anderson clicked play.  As Sarah heard "Hi, I am Kim.  Welcome to my channel" her jaw dropped open in shocked disbelief.  When she heard the video continue "I got divorced from a really amazing guy today" she burst into hysterical tears.  As Dr. Anderson stopped the video Peter reached over and pulled his wife close, holding her against him as her tears darkened his shirt.  He stroked the back of her head and tried to reassure and calm her.  He told her "it is going to be ok baby.  That is why we are here.  That is why I begged Dr. Anderson to move our appointment up to this morning.  I am so sorry, I feel like this is my fault.  But, I promise you, you are going to be ok.  We are going to be ok.  This is all going to be ok.  And in 40 years, as we sit in our rocking chairs holding hands, we will laugh about it."

jep definitely a bit clearer now - so the "accident" with Peters brain damaged never really happened... just in Sarahs (Kim's) Head i think

Episode 14.

Eventually Sarah cried herself out.  Peter dabbed at her eyes with tissues that Dr. Anderson had handed him.  Once Sarah had somewhat regained her composure Dr. Anderson said “Sarah, Peter is right. This is going to be ok.  I have a plan in my head.  But first, let’s talk a little more.”  Sarah looked up and over at Dr. Anderson and weakly asked “but why did she come back?  I have been doing everything right.  She hash been gone for sho long.  Why did she come back now?  And what all kindsh of horrible things did she say?  Or threaten to do?”

Dr. Anderson responded “Sarah, the human mind is so complex.  There is a saying that goes something like ‘if the brain were simple enough for us to understand, we would be too simple minded to understand it.’  It is a bit of a turtles all the way down argument.  But there is a lot of truth in it. And honestly, there is so much we, the medical profession, still do not understand about multiple personality disorder.

First, as to why I think Kim reappeared.  You have handled the death of your mother last year incredibly well. I have been so proud of you.  I will not speak too much of your childhood.  We have certainly spoken enough about it in the past.  We don’t need to dredge up any memories of him.  But, I think that while you, Sarah, have come to terms with your mother’s death; I think that there is at least a sliver of your subconscious that has not.  And I think Kim found it.  I have used this analogy before, but you are the librarian of your mind.  But, Kim has access to all the books.  I think that the death of your mother caused your subconscious to feel threatened.”

Dr. Anderson continued “and we know why Kim exists.  To protect you Sarah.  From “him”.  Unfortunatley, Kim sees all men as “him”.   And I am so, so sorry that you ever needed Kim.  Life is often times unfair and cruel.  Children should never be hurt.  Especially by one of their parents.  But you are so strong Sarah.  You emerged from that storm.  And have made such a wonderful life.  For yourself.  And for your family.  I promise this is just a minor bump in the road.”

Dr. Anderson continued “so, I think the trauma of losing your mother dredged up some memories and emotions, even if they were subconscious, that caused you to feel threatened.  That is completely understandable.  I think the largest part of you is so grateful your mother risked everything to uproot the two of you and get you out.  But I also think a smaller, much smaller, part blames her for letting it happen in the first place.  I do NOT want you to watch Kim’s videos.  At least not now.  Maybe one day, but not now.  I did watch them all.

The good news is that Kim seems to be a much kinder and gentler Kim than ten years ago.  I did not sense the rage from earlier.  Instead, I sensed conflicted sadness.  Maybe she has simply mellowed with age.  But I do not think that is the case.  I think the reason she seems so much calmer, and introspective I might add, is because of your hard work.”  Sarah interruppted him and asked “what did she say?”

Dr. Anderson responded “Kim posted a series of videos about Peter’s brain injury, his rehabilitation, and eventually his move to Germany and Kim’s divorce from him.”  With a bewildered look Sarah asked “what?  None of that happened.”

Dr. Anderson responded “no, none of that happened.  I think her story represented her Sarah.  While the timeline does not line up exactly, it is very close.  I think in her story Peter was actually her, Kim.  The incident, the brain injury, the long rehabilitation, the eventual banishment to another continent.  I think this was a way for Kim, the part of your brain that is Kim, to explain why you have in effect divorced yourself from her.  I think the rehabilitation that Peter underwent in her story reflected YOUR rehabilitation.  Your improvement.  And you may not believe this, but I sensed something else in Kim’s videos.  I sensed love.”

Normally I try not to comment after every chapter, but right now I cannot stop myself

[...]I think for the past week, your headgear has focused your mind, even your subconscious sleeping mind, on your orthodontic treatment.  [...]
Sarah, would it be ok if I contacted your orthodontist to discuss your treatment?”

Oh oh... will that result in orthodontic devices uncomfortable enough to constantly occupy her mind day and night?  Uff!   

I needed that chapter 15 or have a chance at figuring out what the hell is happening. So it’s like a sort of Dr. Jekyll/Mr. Hyde sort personality? So she had the brain injury and has something wrong with her personality so she needs to stay focused as Sarah to not become Kim who isn’t good in a sense. Please keep writing, I’m confused and really want to figure this out. I will say this is not what I expected this story to turn into when I read the first chapters.

I don't want to say whether it will continue or not.  But, if you look back at the story that Kim told, it is very similar in a lot of regards to the one that is really happening now.  Just swap Sarah for Peter.  Almost like they are opposite sides of the same coin.  Not saying that will continue.  But I am also not saying it won't.

Episode 17.

On the ride home, Sarah was very sullen and withdrawn.  Peter knew that she was feeling conflicted.  And sad.  She had worked so hard to lead a normal life.  To free herself from her past.  And from Kim.  And yet, here they were.

He knew she needed support.  But he also wanted to give her space to sort out her thoughts. He knew Sarah.  He knew not be pushy with her.  On the drive home he had simply reached over and grabbed her hand, telling her “I am right here.  I have always been right here.  And I will always be right here.”  He held her hand the rest of the drive home.

Once home, Peter wrapped his arm around Sarah and walked her into the house.  The two sat on the couch, Peter simply holding Sarah.  After a while he squeezed her and said “you lucky rascal.  You get to go lay by the pool, play tennis, and get massages for two weeks.”  She looked over and said “yeah right.  I don’t care what Dr. Anderson said.  It isn’t a resort.”  Peter said “how do you know?  Maybe it is?  Do you want to look at the paperwork?”  Sarah snuggled up against him and said “not now.  Ish it ok if I just sit with you?  What I need right thish second is to feel your warmth against me.”  Peter pulled her close against him and said “of course baby.”

After several minutes, Peter exclaimed “this just isn’t working.”  Sarah’s eyes got big as she pulled away from him, fearing the worst.  She asked, concern in her voice, “what do you mean?  What do you mean this isn’t working?”  Peter replied “this, this right here.  It isn’t working.  Something is wrong.” As he stood up he said “just hold what you’ve got right here a minute” and disappeared into their bedroom.  Sarah was fighting back bad thoughts when Peter emerged from their bedroom.  He was wearing his headgear. 

He came back over to the couch and snuggled back up against Sarah.  He looked over and smiled at her.  He said “I knew something was wrong.  I felt it.  Then I realized I was being a bad patient.  Dr. Parker asked me to wear this anytime I am here at home and not around guests.  This feels better.”

As he looked Sarah in the eyes, he could see the change in her.  It was exactly what he had hoped for.  She said “oh my, you are so thoughtful.  You are a such a good patient. And such a sexy one.”  She began rubbing her hand on the inside of his thigh, and then leaned in maneuvering her lips around the facebow.

Later as they lay in bed, Sarah’s head on his chest, she said “thank you baby.  For today.  For everything.”  He smiled at her and said “well, you know me.  Always here at your service.  And I did not enjoy that one bit. Nope, not one bit.”  She reached over and pinched his nipple.  He laughed and said “there’s my girl.  And ouch.  Stop.  Wait.  Don’t stop.”  This drew a laugh from Sarah.  She then asked “but seriously, why do you do it?  Why do you put up with me?  Are you crazy too?  A sane man would have divorced me long ago.”  She began to run her finger around the ugly scar that was on his abdomen and added “or killed me.”

Some casts, very nice!

I'm liking it a lot!

Wow, a Milwaukee brace, too! Something for everyone in this story.

I'm enjoy this story. Having such a variety of characters in different devices is interesting.

Myopic glasses, Milwaukee brace, casts and braces in a lot of variations - what a huge potential for a long and fascinating story!

Well done!

Episode 24.

The next morning Peter fixed himself a cup of coffee and sat drinking it at the kitchen table simply thinking.  He was feeling a bit melancholy all alone in the house.  The boys were staying with his mother and father for the week.  He had spoken with them on the phone and they were happy and having a great big adventure, getting spoiled by their grandparents along the way.  But the evening before, Peter had laid in bed alone for a long time before sleep found him.  He was not accustomed to not having Sarah by his side.  And his thoughts drifting to her, hoping she was ok in her new temporary home.   While he felt confident that Sarah was in the best of hands, he still missed her.  And worried about her.  He glanced at the clock on the stove and realized he better get going.  He hoped he could bury himself in work to take his mind off of Sarah.

Around 9 am he called Dr. Parker's office and spoke with Emily the receptionist.  He rescheduled Sarah's appointment for 7:30 am on the upcoming Tuesday.  Dr. Parker's office focused largely on adult patients, so they offered "before work" appointments on Tuesdays and Thursdays.  He had also asked to speak with Dr. Parker to discuss Sarah's headgear.  The receptionist told him she was with patients but would pass along the message and she would call him back at her earliest convenience.

At lunch, Peter grabbed a sandwich from around the corner and brought it back to the office.  He was eating it at his desk when his cell phone rang.  He looked at the number and realized it was local, but he didn't have it saved in his contacts.  He quickly swallowed his bite of club and answered "Peter Jackson speaking".  From the other end he heard "Mr. Jackshon, this is Dr. Parker.  From Fair Oaksh Orthodonticsh.  And right off the bat, let me apologizsh for how I am shpeaking.  I just put myshelf into treatment yeshterday.  I am shtill learing how to speak around theshe exspandersh.  But Emily gave me a messhage to return your call.  She shaid you have a question.  What can I help you with?"  Peter said "well, it is actually for Sarah.  First though, did a Dr. Anderson call you?" 

Dr. Parker answered "actually yesh, two days ago I believe.  He explained he was your marriage counselor.  He jusht asked how long Sarah was supposed to wear her headgear.  Shomething about the fact it had come up in your session earlier in the morning.  I told him I couldn't discussh patient specifics. So he asked how many hoursh I normally prescribe in a case like hersh.  I told him normally 12-16 hours per day; over night and a few hours during the day; at least at first until we see how thingsh are moving.  Then he asked if it would hurt if a patient wore it longer.  Or even full time.  I told him no, just the opposite.  It would actually speed treatment up.  But I told him I could never ashk a patient to wear it full time.  It ish jusht not reasonable.  And then he thanked me and hung up.  It wash different to shay the least.  Why?" 

Peter replied "well, actually Dr. Anderson may be a little more than just our marriage counselor.  And if he ever does contact you again, both Sarah and I gave him permission to talk to you and discuss our treatment.  Just so you know.  Anyway, the reason I called is also about Sarah's headgear.  She is doing a great job wearing it.  But the chincup is just so painful for her.  I was wondering if you knew of any tricks to make it more comfortable.  Or if maybe there was another type of facemask that could do the same thing that would be a little easier on her.  More comfortable." 

Dr. Anderson said "oh, I get it.  I alwaysh knew my patientsh said it was not comfortable.  But I didn't REALLY get it.  Until now.  But I do have a have a little tip.  Get a flat rubber insole, like for a shoe, new preferably" and she laughed.  "Cut it in an oval a little bigger than the chipcup.  Hold it on there, then slip a small sock, like a child's sock, over the whole chincup.  I found that a shilk type dressh sock ish more comfortable than a rougher cotton sock.  But either will be better than just that thin pad that comesh on it.  Now that I am wearing one myshelf, I am experimenting with other thingsh too.  For me, and for my patientsh." 

Peter asked "wow, so you are wearing one too?"  Dr. Parker replied "yesh, last night was my first night.  I knew that the appliance was uncomfortable.  But I didn't really undershtand how much until I tried to wear it through the night myself.  My mother hash given me such grief about making her wear, as she callsh it, a torture device.  I decided I would show her it wash no big deal.  Plush, I can actually use it.  But wowsersh, she was right.  Sho letsh just say I have a vested interest in making it more comfortable.  For all my patientsh.  If I come up with something better, I will let you know.  I also see we have moved your appointment up to 7:30 am on Tuesday.  The early bird gets the elastic!"  She laughed at her little orthodontic joke and finished with "but in the meantime, if you have any additional questionsh, do not heshitate to call.  Oh, and thank you for putting up with my lishp.  I hope you understood everything I shaid." 

Peter replied "thank you so much. And I absolutely understood you just fine.  You are talking great considering you just got them.  Did you get something similar to Sarah's?  It isn't any of my business, just curious."  Dr. Parker responded "I don't mind talking about it.  I mean, it ish my business.  I did get upper and lower expandersh.  My lower is exactly like Sarah'sh, obviously fitted to my mouth.  And I did get an upper mini-implant expander, a custom six-screw MARPE.  It has 50% more poking goodness than the branded 4 screw MSE like she has."  She again laughed.  "But I needed it due to my palate thicknessh.  I will be honesth with you, I do hope my mouth cooperatesh.  Because, I will not be sad to see it go.  Two daysh down, hopefully only 363 to go.  Anyway, don't let me bore you with my burdensh, I did it to myself this time.  Before I say goodbye, how are you doing with your treatment?  Any issuesh?  Trouble areash?  Is your mouth adjusting?  And are you getting that headgear time in?" 

Peter said "everything is good.  No real complaints.  And believe it or not, maybe just because of Sarah, I am getting my time in with the headgear."  Dr. Parker said "that ish great to hear.  Now, if you don't mind, I will bid you adieu.  Talking is not too much fun for me right now. I DO however look forward to seeing Sarah on Tuesday."  Peter said "I will be there too, so I look forward to seeing you as well.  Goodbye."

I like how you have been giving little hints of what might happen. Even if you don't use them, it is nice they are there.

It seems as if just about everyone in the story has something going on with their bodies.

Episode 26.

As they walked down the hall Peter said “I also brought you something else.  In the bottom of the bag there is a pair of gel insoles and a couple of pairs of kid’s socks.”  Sarah looked over at him with a confused look on her face and asked “huh?”  He said “for your facemask.  To make it more comfortable.  I spoke with Dr. Parker and she recommended it.”  Arriving at her door he added “I will tell you all about it.  After you tell me about your day.”

Sitting hand in hand out on the overlook Sarah told him about her day.  She told him about her different individual sessions.  And about her group session.  She said “I am not the only patient here with dissociative identity disorder..”. Peter corrected her “guest, you are a guest.”  Sarah continued “whatever.  I have never been a guest anywhere that made me attend so many meetings.  Anyway, guests.   There are eight of us guests that are afflicted with it.  We had a one hour group session.  We will every day during the week.  Anyway, it was very enlightening.  And maybe I have it easy.  I just have Kim.  All the other girls have multiple alters.  One has 26.  But as usual, I am the odd one.  All the others’ alters are stuck in time.  Their alters do not age.  Versus Kim, who has grown up with me. I guess I should be grateful I have only the one voice in my head.  And I have largely learned to keep her away.  At least until recently when I am asleep.  I can’t even imagine hearing 26 voices in my head all at the same time.  I would go insane.  Or more insane than I already am.”

Peter said “don’t say that.  You are not insane.  You just have a little extra memory installed in your hard drive.”  Sarah laughed and said “so you’re saying I am a computer?  I am glad you didn’t use THAT as one of your pick up lines when we first met.”  Peter smiled and asked “so you’re saying you wouldn’t have fallen for “hey baby, that sure is a good looking hard drive you have’?”  Sarah laughed and said “no, most definitely not.  But you know, I might should have used it on you.  Because you most certainly do have a good looking hard drive.”  She squeezed his hand and gave him a wink.

Peter said “Mrs. Jackson, are you trying to get me hot and bothered.”  She gave him a flirty smile and said “maybe.”

She changed the subject back to her day and said “but really, it was interesting to hear from and talk with others who understand.  I was surprised.  I actually walked away glad I was here.  At least for that.  You know what else I enjoyed?  And it surprised the heck out of me.  And I am sure I will be sore tomorrow.”  Peter responded “what’s that?”  Sarah said “yoga.  I enjoyed our one hour yoga class.  I always thought of yoga as some kind of new age weirdness.  But I enjoyed it.  It was hard, but they said it will get easier.  I think I will enjoy it.  Heck, I might even keep doing it after they release me on parole.”  She looked over at Peter and said “and if so, maybe I could even convince someone to join me?”  Peter smiled at her and said “sure thing, I think I might enjoy you twisting me into some weird positions.  You already have me twisted all around you.”  She swatted his arm and said “stop it goober, I am serious.”  Peter smiled back and replied “and so am I.”

Sarah said “ok funny guy, tell me about your day.  But first, how are Michael and Jacob?  I miss them so much.  I worry about them.  And I feel so guilty I am not at home to be their momma.”  Peter replied “don’t worry.  Please.  They are just fine.  They miss you too.  But, and don’t take this the wrong way, they are having a blast staying with my parents.  They are doing just great.  Speaking of the boys, I want to bring them to visit on Saturday.”  Sarah replied “ok.  I would like that.”  Peter was surprised at Sarah’s sudden change of heart from the night before, but he didn’t want to delve into it lest she overthink it and change her mind.  So, he simply replied “yay!  I will tell them tonight.  They will be so excited.”

Peter then told her about his day.  About how much he missed her.  And how much he had thought about her.  Then he said “I did talk to Dr. Parker today.  I got your appointment moved to 7:30 am on Tuesday.  And I talked with Dr. Higgins to get approval to pick you up early.  So, we are all set.  And guess who else now has expanders and headgear like you?”  Sarah just shrugged her shoulders.  Peter continued “Dr. Parker.  She got them yesterday.  She called me back at lunch.  I could barely understand her.  But, she said she had much more appreciation for what her patients are going through.  And she told me she was experimenting with ways to make the whole headgear portion of treatment more comfortable.”

Sarah said “wow.  She got her expanders yesterday?  With the screws?  And was back at work today?”  Peter replied “yep, she sure was.  And she said hers had six screws instead of four.”  Sarah shook her head and said “I have no idea how she was able to go right back to work and make it through the day.  There is no way I could have.  She must be a tough lady.  But I bet she is sore tonight.  Those first few days were hell.  And speaking? Oh my.  You know how sore I was.  The screws are just brutal, on the palate and the tongue.”

Peter asked “but what about my baby’s tongue?  It sounds like you did a lot of talking today.”  Sarah said “you know, I haven’t even really thought about.”  Peter said “yay!  It does sound like you had a great day.  You know what else?  Did you even notice it?”  Sarah asked “notice what?”  Peter answered “your speech baby.  You barely have a lisp anymore.  I can still tell a little difference.  But someone who just met you would have no idea.”  Sarah sat there for a minute replaying her voice in her head.  She then exclaimed “Wow!  You are right.  And no, I hadn’t even noticed.  It is almost like I am getting used to them.  They said I would, but I sure didn’t believe them.  But maybe they are right.  Maybe this IS going to get easier and easier.”

Episode 28.

The next morning Sarah awoke at 6 am.  As she sat up, she realized that her chin was not hurting nearly as much as it normally did.  She got up and walked over to the vanity and quickly removed her headgear and facemask.  As she looked at her chin in the mirror, she noticed it was not nearly as red and angry as it had been every morning since she started treatment.  She looked down at her facemask and thought of Peter.  He was so sweet to have brought her the extra padding.

After showering and dressing Sarah entered the empty sitting area.  She turned the TV on and sat.  A few minutes later she heard Amelia’s bedroom door open.  Amelia emerged from the door with a nurse behind her. 

Sarah had seen this same nurse several times already during her brief stay.  She was brunette, full figured, and Sarah guessed her at about the same age as herself.  Sarah knew her name was Julia.  And while the nurse had introduced herself the first morning, Sarah did not really know her.  It did appear that Julia was assigned to help Amelia in the mornings, while another nurse named Monica helped her in the evenings.

Amelia stopped and turned towards the nurse saying “Julia, as always thank you for the help.”  Holding up her immobilized arms she asked “have you heard when I might get these off?”  Julia responded “no sweetheart, I am sorry I have not.  But you are being so good about it.  Thank you for that.”  Amelia replied “I don’t guess pitching a fit everyday will make it any easier.”  Julia responded “that is exactly right.  And the right attitude to have.”  Looking over at Sarah, the nurse said “Mrs. Jackson, good morning.  Could I have a minute of your time please?”

Sarah was curious what she would possibly want to discuss but said “sure, of course.”  Walking in her direction Julia said “how about we step into your bedroom?”  Sarah stood and said “ok” as she worried what this was all about.

Standing in her bedroom Julia asked “do you prefer Mrs. Jackson?  Or Sarah?”  Sarah responded “please, Sarah”.  Julia said “Sarah, I need to discuss your headgear wear.  Your file says you are supposed to wear it for 16 hours a day.  Yesterday, you logged 12 hours.  I am going to have to ask you to put it on now.” 

Sarah protested “but, my orthodontist told me 12 to 16 hours.  I got 12 hours in.”  Julia said “I do not know what your orthodontist told you.  I only know what is in your file.  Your file says you have to wear it 16 hours per day.  So, I need you to put it on now.  You need to get 20 hours in today to make up for yesterday.”  Sarah’s face went white.

She pleaded “but no, really, I only have to wear it for 12 hours a day.  Really.  I can’t wear it out of this room.  I just can’t.”

Julia said “Sarah, I am sorry.  But your file says 16 hours a day.  Please, I need you to put it on.”  The nurse took a few steps towards the vanity and picked up the facemask.  She asked “do I need to help you put it on?” 

Sarah said “NO!  I can’t wear it all day.  I will die of embarrassment” 

Julia said “I am sorry, but you have to.  And I promise you that it will be ok.  You will not die of embarassment.” 

Sarah said “and if I just say no?” 

Julia said “please do not do that.  I don’t want to have to help you get dressed every morning.  I don’t think you do either.”

Sarah went silent as she registered what the nurse had just said.  For several moments the thoughts raced through her head.  She did not see that she had any choice.  She took the facemask from the nurse.  Once she had attached the facemask and headgear she turned towards Julia and barked “satisfied?”  Sarah was upset.  She continued “I can’t believe you are doing this to me.”  Julia responded “I am really sorry to be the bad guy here.  But, we are not doing this to you.  We are doing this for you.  And I get it.  About the embarrassment of headgear.  I had adult braces from age 22 to 24.  I got them as soon as I graduated nursing school and got a job.  I could finally afford them then.  They made me wear cervical headgear for 14 hours a day.  Or I was supposed to wear it 14 hours a day.  I was bad about it.  Looking back, I wish I’d have had someone to make me wear my headgear like I was supposed to.  While I did end up with straight teeth I still have this massive overbite.”  Julia smiled at Sarah and asked “See?”

Sarah was not ready to let it drop.  She said “well, it is a whole lot easier for you to talk about you not wearing your headgear than me actually standing here wearing mine.  Why don’t you go get you another set of braces and headgear and then get back to me.”  Julia looked at her and said “actually, I AM getting braces again.  Next week.  Our reception talked me into it, though I had been considering it for the past few years.  I figure if I have to do it, I might as well do it with someone.  A partner to commiserate with. And I will be getting headgear. A combination headgear.  Two straps for double the fun.  And if I want to get my time in; 14-16 hours a day like you;  I will have to wear it a few hours a day while on duty.  And I am not going to make the same mistake again and not wear it.  So, you were saying?”

Sarah went silent as she processed what she had heard.  And she replayed her comments in her head. She said “I am sorry.  I didn’t know.  And I am sorry for being a bitch.  You are just doing your job.  This is just a shock. I apologize.” 

Julia replied “thank you, I accept your apology.  And I want to again apologize for having to be the bad guy here.  But for the record, you make that headgear look good.  And maybe we can be headgear buddies?”

Episode 30.

Peter pulled into the visitor parking lot at 4:30.  He grabbed the potted lily and headed for VistaView’s main entrance.  Entering the main entrance he walked up to reception.  Lakyn looked up smiling and greeted him “Peter!  You are early.  Visiting hours aren’t until 5.” 

Without a smile he replied “hello Lakyn.  I am a little early.  I need to speak with Dr. Higgins.  We spoke earlier.  She should be expecting me.”

Lakyn noticed his demeanor wasn’t as sunny as she was accustomed.  After phoning Dr. Higgins she placed the phone in it’s cradle and asked “Is everything ok?” 

Peter said “I am worried about Sarah.  When we talked earlier she was a bit distraught about having to wear her headgear all day today. She said she got a lot of stares and questions.”

Lakyn asked “oh wow, she wore her headgear all day?  How brave of her.  But that’s a good thing right?  The more she wears it the faster everything will move.  At least that is what they told me.  Right?”

Peter replied “that is true.  At least that is what they say.  But today was hard on her.” 

He was interrupted by the clicking of heels and Dr. Higgins’ voice welcoming him “Peter!  Good to see you again.  Let’s go to my office.”

As he sat Dr. Higgins said “that is a beautiful lily.  For Sarah I assume.”  Peter affirmed it was.  Dr. Higgins said “I am sure she will love it.  Now, what did you want to discuss?”

Peter said “Sarah’s headgear.  You made her wear it for 20 hours today.  She only has to wear it for 12-16 hours.  I can confirm her orthodontist said that.”

Dr. Higgins replied “I am sorry, but we have 16 hours as the minimum.  Just our standard policy.  As I stated when she joined us, we do not want to negatively impact guest’s other treatments.  And we alway err on the side of caution.  Since we have a range here, 12 to 16, we go with 16.”  She typed on the keyboard and then studied her monitor.  Looking back up at Peter she said “since she only got in 12 hours yesterday, she needed to make up the time.  But from the notes it looks like Julia tried to accommodate her the best she could. And at least according to the notes, she seemed ok with it this morning.  Are  the notes incorrect?  If so, I need to speak with Julia.”

Peter said “no, she was ok with it.  It’s just… She got a lot of stares and questions.  Especially in her group session.  I want to ask you, please, can we just do 12 hours?”

With a stern look Dr. Higgins asked “so these questions, were any of them ugly or insulting?  Did any of the other guests, or God forbid staff members, bully her?  If so, I can fix that.  I can fix that very quickly.”

Peter replied “no, she just said she got questions about what it was.  About what it did.  How long she has had it and how long she has to wear.  Comments from some of the other women about their braces experiences.  According to Sarah, all the conversations she had today revolved around her headgear.  It made her feel self-conscious.”

Dr. Higgins responded “well, that is just human nature.  People are curious.  Honestly, as long as no one bullied her, I do not see the issue here.  I understand she may feel uncomfortable.  But, I can’t bend our policies for her.  But, it will get easier for her.  Growth and change are uncomfortable.  Please, give it a few days.  If she is still having issues we can discuss it then.  But, I don’t think that will be necessary.  She will adapt.  Think about my Izzy.  And that horrible brace she has to wear for 22 hours a day.  I love Izzy like a daughter.  And while I know she hates it, she needs it.  So I make sure she wears it.  Frankly, I feel the same about your wife Sarah.  So, I am sorry, I can’t budge.”

Peter asked “so, you won’t do anything?”

Dr. Higgins responded “I did not say that.  I just said to give it a few days.  I think that is very fair.”  She went silent thinking.  She then continued “I will say this though.  Hypothetically speaking of course.  If you were to take Sarah out Saturday, you know you could, you have from noon to seven; and if you told me she wore her headgear the whole seven hours, I would have to take you at your word.  And that would mean she would only have to wear it 9 hours more on Saturday.  Basically overnight while she slept.  All hypothetically speaking of course.”

Peter picked up exactly what she was saying.  He said “thank you.  That sounds like an excellent idea.”

Dr. Higgins smiled and replied “good.  I know you want what is best for your wife.  Even if it means exaggerating a little how long she wore her headgear on a Saturday.”  She gave him an exaggerated wink and said “I really DO want what is best for her too.  Speaking of which, I think what she needs right now is to see you.  And that beautiful plant.  I will escort you to the pool, even though visiting hours don’t start for a few more minutes.  And just so you know, I knew her headgear was bothering her.  So I let her and Izzy go to the pool an hour early.  And I couldn’t make her wear her headgear there.  And even if she does come up just a little short, I will make sure that 20 hours gets noted in her file for today.”

Peter said “thank you Dr. Higgins.”

As she stood Dr. Higgins smiled and responded “of course.  I am not a monster.  Even if I do make guests do things or wear medical aids they don’t want to, I only do so because I want what is best for them.”

Episode 31.

As Peter accompanied Dr. Higgins down the hallway he told her “I am sorry if you thought I was attacking you just now.  Or questioning how you run things.  It’s just…”  She continued for him “you worry about her.  I completely get it.  And no, I don’t think you were attacking me or VistaView.  Or questioning my leadership or judgement.  You were simply advocating for your wife.  I would be more concerned if you didn’t do that.”  They took a few more steps and she continued “so, did you not bring any shorts or swim trunks?  You may just be a little overdressed for a quick swim.”

Peter said “I didn’t even think about it.  I was so focused on Sarah.  Worried about Sarah.  And I wasn’t even sure if visitors could use the pool.  Or if it is only for guests.” 

Dr. Higgins answered “absolutely you can.  I mean you can’t just show up for daily laps.  But the pool is open for visitors when they are accompanying guests.  Like now, with Sarah.  I will see what I can round up for you.  What about that beautiful lily?  Do you want to give it to her now?  Or maybe leave it in her room to surprise her later?”

Peter said “I hadn’t even thought of that.  That would be a happy little surprise for her to find this evening.  Could we swing by her room?  And would you mind taking it into her room?”

Dr. Higgins said “even better, I will escort you.  You can put it where you see fit.”

Peter put the plant down on the little table in the communal area of Sarah and Amelia’s suite.  Peter asked “what do you think about here?  It adds a little color.  And both Sarah and Amelia can enjoy it.”  Dr. Higgins replied “I think it looks gorgeous.  And that is thoughtful of you.  I am sure they will both love it.” 

Arriving at the doors to the pool, Dr. Higgins held one of the doors open.  Peter stepped out into the sun and squinted as his eyes adjusted.  He looked on at Sarah, who was laying on her back on a float with a slight smile on her face.  She was watching Izzy swim.  Neither had noticed Peter’s arrival.  Dr. Higgins stepped beside him and said “why don’t you go say hi?  And I will round you up a set of trunks and a towel.  You can change in the restroom.” 

Peter didn’t budge.  While there were a handful of other women in the pool or laying out beside it, he ignored them.  He was completely focused on Sarah.  He absently said to Dr. Higgins “she is so beautiful.  And she looks happy.”  Dr. Higgins responded “I bet seeing you will make her even happier.  Go on, I will be back in a few minutes.”

Peter walked up to the edge of the pool behind Sarah and squatted down on his haunches.  He let out a catcall whistle.  As Sarah turned her head towards him he added “you must be exhausted, because you’ve been swimming through my mind all day.”

She couldn’t contain her laugh.  She then smiled at him and said “you are SO corny.”  She rolled off the float and into the water.  She swam over to the edge of the pool and lifted herself up.  Peter leaned over and gave her a quick peck on the lips.  He then grabbed her and said “let me give the lady a hand getting out of the pool.” 

After she was standing on the edge of the pool he gave her a hug.  She quickly pushed him away and said “I am going to get you all wet.”  He smiled back at her and quietly said “that’s my job.”  She rolled her eyes and said “you are corny AND a horndog.”  He leaned in and kissed her again and said “maybe, but I am your horndog.”

Episode 32.

Carrying the clothes he had been wearing, Peter emerged from the men's bathroom wearing the swim trunks and t-shirt that Dr. Higgins had cobbled together for him.  As he walked barefoot up to her and Sarah, Dr. Higgins smiled and said "yay! It fits.  I will leave you two, I am sure there are twenty other things that need my attention.  Oh, and Peter, remember what I said about Saturday.  I will bid you two adieu, but will see you two at dinner her shortly."  With that, Dr. Higgins turned and walked back to towards the building.

As she departed, Sarah looked at Peter and asked "what was she talking about on Saturday?"

Peter took her hand and said "let's go sit, and I will tell you all about it."

After getting comfortable in a couple of loungers Peter said "I am breaking you out of here on Saturday.  I had a little talk with Dr. Higgins.  I won't go into all of it, but I talked to her about them making you wear the facemask outside of your room.  I didn't win, but I did get a concession.  Dr. Higgins reminded me that we could leave on Saturday.  And that none of the staff here would have any way to know whether you got the full 16 hours in.  She couldn't exactly tell me to give you a break from it.  But that is what she said.  So, day after tomorrow you are going to get a little break."  He then asked "so, how was it after lunch?  You sounded pretty upset when we spoke."

Sarah replied "first, thank you.  That is so sweet of you.  I don't know why you are so good to me.  But you are."  She went silent a few seconds and reached over and took his hand and said "I love you so much.  And I am so sorry for all of this."

Peter squeezed her hand and said "I love you too.  But do not apologize.  This is just a bump in the road.  All that matters is you.  And your health.  I am the one that needs to apologize.  I feel like this is my fault too."  He changed directions when he said "but enough of that.  We are together here, on a beautiful day.  Sitting by a pool holding hands.  It could be worse.  So, tell me about your day."

Sarah said "you are right.  This is nice.  Despite the circumstances.  And maybe I was being a bit overly dramatic earlier when we talked.  But, it WAS quite an adjustment having to wear my facemask all day.  There were so many stares.  And you know it isn't comfortable.  But, it also wasn't the end of the world.  I mean, I did sign up for it.  And I have to remind myself that it will all be worth it."  She then gave Peter a sly smile and added "and you are SO sexy in that headgear of your's."

Peter laughed and said "again, at least one of us likes it.  But you know what?  It is worth it.  Because I know it makes you happy.  And I am so happy that your day did get better.  And I know every day will continue to get better."

They were interrupted by Izzy's voice asking "Sarah, come swim with me some more.  Please?".

Peter and Sarah looked up to see Izzy propped up on the edge of the pool looking at them inquisitively. 

Sarah answered "Izzy, I had so much fun swimming with you.  But, I am not part fish like you.  You have worn me out.  I need to rest a minute."  Sarah could see the disappointment in Izzy's face.  She continued "I promise, we will do it again.  A lot.  But, I am beat."  She then looked at Peter and said "but you know who else could swim with you?"  Looking back at Izzy she said "My Peter here.  Why don't you put my sweet hubby here through his paces?  Would that be ok?"

Izzy's face brightened and she exclaimed "Yes!  Come on Mr. Jackson!  Please?"

Peter couldn't help but smile.  Izzy's excitement was contagious.  He said "of course Miss Izzy.  But only on the one condition.  You have to call me Peter."

Izzy beamed and said "thank you Peter!"

As Peter slipped into the pool Sarah loudly said "Izzy, don't go easy on him."

I'm glad to see a couple new chapters. Thanks so much!

Episode 34.

As Sarah and Peter entered the dining room at 6:15, Peter noticed that most everyone was already seated eating dinner.  There were only a handful of people in line still waiting to serve themselves.  As they walked up to get in line, Peter discreetly scanned the room to see if anyone had noticed their late arrival.  He saw only one person that seemed to have noticed, Izzy.  She was staring at them intently.

As Peter and Sarah approached the table with their trays, Izzy exclaimed “You’re late.  You aren’t supposed to be late for dinner.  But I saved you seats.”

As Peter pulled back Sarah’s chair he responded “thank you Izzy.  That was nice of you.  And thoughtful.  It is my fault.  I had to shower and change.  And I am slow to get ready.  I lost track of time.  Again, my fault.”

As he sat down, he noticed Izzy was still staring at him.  She had her head cocked to the side questioningly.  Or cocked as much as her brace would allow.  Peter sensed she didn’t buy his story, so he continued “plus, you wore me out Izzy.  I am moving a little slow.  I am going to be so sore tomorrow.”

Sarah chimed in and added “me too Izzy.  That was quite the workout we just had.”  When she finished she smiled at Peter. 

Peter knew that Sarah was not just referring to their time in the pool.  He tried to steer the conversation further away asking “Izzy, how is the lasagna?  It looks delicious.”

This broke Izzy’s gaze.  She cut her eyes down at her plate and then back up as she said “it is really good!  I love lasagna!”

Peter replied “you know who else loves lasagna?  Garfield.”

Izzy looked back at him silently.  He added “but you may be too young to remember Garfield the Cat.  He was a thing when I was a kid.”

Izzy sat silently.  She then softly said “I loved Garfield.  My parents took me to see the movie when I was a little girl.”  Peter noticed her lip start quivering before she softly started crying.

I will go ahead and apologize in advance for typos and such.  Traffic in Texas has been brutal today.

I love to complain about the weather, or the seas, or the temperature.  I like to complain about it as a brag; I fought nature and won.

But it is hot here.

113 degrees in Fort Worth… while typing a story…while driving west on I-20. 

Do not text and drive.

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Thank you.

Episode 36.

Peter picked at his food while Sarah and Izzy were gone.  He was hungry.  And the lasagna was delicious.  But his thoughts were on Izzy and Sarah.  For Sarah, specifically how her expanders were causing her more issues.  And about Izzy.  About how he had upset her.  And even more than that, her plight in life.   He was lost in introspection before he even saw them.  But he couldn’t ignore Izzy’s excited squeal.  He snapped out of his thoughts as the two approached the table.  He overheard Izzy say “it’s so cool.  But it is so big.  It is so much metal.”

As Sarah approached the table she made eye contact with Peter.  Here eyes were wide.  Peter knew Sarah.  He could read her body language.  He saw the look on his wife’s face and recognized it  She was pleading for help.  For someone to step in and offer some relief.

As they stopped at the table, Peter asked “so, did you two get the problem solved?  This lasagna is delicious.  But is sure is rude isn’t it Izzy?”  It took Izzy a second to process what Peter said.

Izzy replied “it isn’t rude.  But it is sticky.  Or the cheese is.  It was stuck in Sarah’s expander.”  As Izzy sat back down she asked “do you know about all the stuff in Sarah’s mouth?  It is so big.  And so cool.”

Peter couldn’t help but laugh and then answered “I know Izzy, it so big.  It is so much.  But my Sarah is such a trooper.”  He then told a white lie and said “but she doesn’t complain about it one bit.  Because she wants to fix her bite.  She knows she has to put up with some short term inconvenience for some long term improvement.  It is a lot.  But she handles it so well.  And I know a lot about it.  Before she came here, I turned her expanders for her.  Every day.  They are big.”  Sarah had now seated herself.  Peter reached over and took her hand.  He was talking to Izzy but looking into Sarah’s eyes when he added “I hate having to turn them.  But I am so lucky that I am the man that gets to turn them.”  Sarah wilted into her seat.

Izzy had not noticed this when she excitedly asked “so, who turns them now?  You aren’t here that much Peter.  How do you turn them if you aren’t here?”

Sarah replied “I have been turning them.  Clumsily as I can.  Maybe after dinner we could turn them together? I hate having to turn them myself.  It is so hard.  Maybe you could help me Izzy?”

Izzy’s face lit up.  She excitedly asked “really?  Could I?  That would he so awesome.  Your braces are so cool.  I wish I could get braces”. 

It was now Sarah who laughed.  She patted Izzy’s hand as she said “you are adorable Izzy.  You have a beautiful smile.  And be careful what you wish for.  Braces are no joke. Or at least expanders aren’t.  I know that all too well.  And don’t get me started on headgear.”

Izzy squealed “headgear?  You have to wear headgear too?  Wow!  But that is cool too!”

Peter interjected and said “Sarah isn’t the only one who has to wear headgear Izzy.  I have to wear it too.  But mine isn’t as cool as Sarah’s.  But I am not nearly as pretty as Sarah to start with.”  Sarah sank even deeper into herself.

Izzy looked over at him and asked “really?  You two both have headgear?  Together?  How awesome is that?  You two are so lucky.”

It was at this moment that Peter had an idea for what he could do to make it up to Izzy for upsetting her earlier.  And maybe to make up for something many teens take for granted, but that Izzy had missed out on growing up in foster care.   He just needed to run it by Dr. Higgins first.

Episode 37.

Tuesday morning Sarah woke earlier than normal.  Peter was picking her up at 6:30 for her orthodontic appointment.  She had finished showering and dressing, and was just starting to work on her makeup, when she heard a soft knock on her door.  She looked at the clock and saw it was 5:50.  As she made the short walk to the door she wondered who it was, Amelia was not usually stirring this early.

Opening the door, she found nurse Julia standing there.  But what caused the momentary shocked look that passed over her face was what Julia was wearing.  Emerging from her mouth was a bright shiny facebow connected to a mass of blue straps encircling her head.  Sarah hoped that Julia had not noticed the shock she had felt.

Julia said “goo morning.  Ish a lot I know.  But I jush wanted to check on you, make sure you were awake.  And I hate to intrude.  But I wash hoping I could ash you a few questionsh.  And ash a favor.”

As she had been speaking, Sarah had noticed that in addition to the very obvious headgear, Julia was wearing metal brackets on her upper and lower teeth.  She also noticed something else in her mouth. Hanging down behind her front teeth was something that looked like a little fence.

Sarah smiled at Julia and said “Yay!  You got them!  Please, come in!  Let’s chat.  But first, how are you feeling?”

Stepping into the room Julia said “thash what I wanted to talk to you about.  I knew I wash getting the bracshes and headgear.  But Dr. Parker shurprised me with thish tongue crib.”  Julia opened her mouth and tilted her head back.  Sarah could see the massive appliance hanging down in Julia’s mouth.  And she understood why she was having so much trouble speaking.  Julia continued “thish thing ish driving me nutsh.  I know you have expandersh, and they don’t seem to caush you any issuesh.  Pleash tell me a trick to deal with thish thing.”

Sarah said “wow, that is an impressive piece of equipment.  Unfortunately, there are no tricks.  You just have to hope your mouth gets used to everything.  It is certainly a process.  The last thing you want to do I know is talk. I remember the feeling all too well.  But that is exactly what you need to do.  I remember how much the first few days sucked after I got my expanders installed.  But it will get better.  I promise.  Oh, and wax.  Lots of wax.”

Julia awkwardly tried to smile.  She said “thah you.”  She stood there in awkward silence for a moment before saying “and, um, I do have another question.  It may nah be appropriate.  But, how did you handle all thish with your hushband?  I mean, ish Peter ok with it?  My boyfriend wash sho cold lasht night.  I tried to kish him and he seemed so aloof.  He just stared at me, at thish headgear.  I am questioning if I made a mistake.”

Sarah hugged Julia.  Releasing her she said “I am so sorry.  My Peter is just the best.  He has been nothing but supportive.  Heck, he got braces for me. So we could do this together.  If anything, this has brought us closer together.  What is your boyfriend’s name?  How long have you two been together?”

Julia replied “hish name ish Nathan.  We have been dating for around 8 months.”

Sarah replied “he is probably just trying not to hurt you.  It is different kissing with braces.  But, and it might not be my place to say this, if he has a problem because you got braces he might not be the one.”

Julia pursed her lips around her facebow.  She responded “I hope it ish the firsht one.  But I am afraid it ish the latter.  Speaking of getting looks, everyone I have spoken to or passed by thish morning hash broken their necksh gawking at me.  At this” as she gestured to her headgear.  “I feel like so self conscious.  And I feel SO bad I had to make you wear your’s all day lasht week.  I am shorry.”

Sarah smiled and said “you don’t need to apologize.  You were just doing your job.  It does get better.  That first day was rough.  But, most people here seem to have gotten fairly used to seeing me in mine occasionally.  You will get a lot of questions today.  But you will live.”  Giving Julia a big smile she said “I am proof of that. And speaking of headgear…”

Sarah stepped into the bathroom.  She emerged quickly wearing her facemask.

Sarah said “see, we are in this together.  So, did Lakyn have her appointment yesterday too?  I remember you said you two were doing it together.  How is she doing?”

Julia replied “you mush have read my mind.  That wash the favor I mentioned.  She did get her expandersh.  And they went ahead and fit her for a fashmashk like yoursh, jusht without the strap.  She wash hurtin pretty bad and very miserable lasht night.  I wash hoping you could talk to her later when she comesh in.  I think she ish havung second thoughtsh about thish whole thing too.”

Sarah responded “absolutely.  And I am sorry you two are hurting.  But I am glad to have someone else join me.  And remember, adult braces are cool now days.  Hey, do one thing for me please?  Give me a big smile.”

Julia said “well, I haven’t really figured out how to with all this.  But I will try.”  She gave Sarah a big smile.

Sarah said “you look good with braces.  Some people really pull them off.  You are one of those.”

Julia snickered and said “yeah, right.”

Sarah grabbed her hand and said “no, really.  You do.  And it will get easier.  I promise.  And I will talk with Lakyn when she comes in.  And if you ever want to talk about anything, at anytime, I am here.”

It was now Julia who hugged Sarah.  She stepped back and said “thank you.  I better get going.  My shift officially starts at six.  I am sure I will be the star attraction, the nurse with headgear.  I will stop back by and take you up front when your husband arrives.  Well, unlesh I die of embarrashment or shame before then.”

Winking at Julia, Sarah told her “seriously, you are a total babe.  And those braces are cute on you.  You will have guys beating down your door. Maybe a few girls too.  Just you wait and see.”

Wonderful story!

Episode 40.

Peter smiled at the officer and said “you aren’t the first person I have seen wearing a headgear exactly like that this morning.  One of Sarah’s friends…”. Peter stopped and said “how rude of me.  We haven’t even made introductions.  Hello, I am Peter”. Gesturing to Sarah he added “and this is my beautiful wife Sarah.”  Sarah nodded her head and said “hello.”

The officer, her name badge said Milton, stuck her hand out and said “hello, I am Emily.”  She then got an amused look on her face and laughed.  She quickly apologized “I’m sorry, I am not laughing at you.  I am just laughing at this” as she gestured around the office with her hand.  “If someone had told me when I woke up that I would be sitting in public; introducing myself and having a conversation; all while wearing my headgear I would have called them crazy”.

Peter laughed and replied “yes, it is a little strange.  If someone had told me two months ago I would be sitting here doing the same, I too would have told them they were crazy as… very crazy.  But really, is it that crazy?  It is just normal people working on improving their smiles.  Their bites.  Their overall health.  That isn’t so crazy”.

Emily pondered that thought and responded “well, put that way, it doesn’t seem THAT crazy.  But this headgear…”

Sarah interrupted and said “looks good on you.  That is exactly what I told Julia this morning too.  It certainly looks better than this” as she dug in her purse.  Pulling out her high pull strap she said “now this?  This is crazy.”  She quickly placed the strap over her head and attached it to her chincup.  She continued “at least you don’t have to deal with this.”

Emily asked “but you don’t have to wear it in public do you?  I mean other than here obviously.  Dr. Parker wants me to wear mine in public.  Or at least she has told me to wear it so many hours, 16 hours a day, that I would have to wear it in public to get that kind of time in.  I just can’t.  I will not.  I don’t care, I just won’t do it.”

Sarah said “well, at least Dr. Parker sounds consistent.  She also told me 12-16 hours.  I wear it 16 hours.  So yes, I have worn it in public.  It was a shock the first day.  Actually the first few days.  But I found that once people saw me in it a few times, they sort of got used to it.  There were a lot of looks and questions at first.  And my friend Julia, she is a nurse, she is going to be wearing hers a few hours a day while on duty.  I am NOT telling you to wear yours.  But, I am saying it is possible.  Fun?  No.  Doable?  Absolutely.”

Emily said “wow… wow… that just sounds terrifying.”  She was interrupted by Cassie, whom none of the three had notice come into the waiting area.  She looked over and said “Emily, would you come on back?”  As Emily stood and grabbed her headgear pouch Cassie gave a little wave.  She said “Sarah, Peter, it should be about 5 more minutes.”  As Emily approached, Cassie held the door open for her.  As Emily walked through it Peter heard Cassie say “it is great you are wearing your headgear, Dr. Parker will really like that”.

Now alone in the treatment area, Peter looked at Sarah and said “well, this has certainly been an interesting morning already.”  Lowering his voice he said “and I guess for someone that has a little thing for braces, this has to be nirvana.” 

Sarah responded “I don’t have a thing for girls.  You know that.  Even if they are wearing braces.  I don’t know, it is weird, I am weird.  I am rambling.  But I like my braces.  And I REALLY like your braces.”  Cuddling up against him she added “it is just a shame yours are so discreet.  God, metal braces would be so hot…”

Peter wrapped his arm around Sarah’s shoulder and asked “so you wouldn’t be embarrassed to have a metalmouthed husband?  To be seen in public with me?  Even it I had to wear headgear?”

Sarah squirmed closer into him and cooed “that would be so hot.”  She went quiet and her left hand absently wandered down towards her crotch. 

Peter asked “whatcha thinking about?”

Sarah replied “you.  Imagining you with metal braces.  And a headgear like Julia has.”  Their conversation was interrupted by the bell on the door and a man in his twenties entering the lobby.  As he headed to the reception desk, Sarah said “you need to stop.  Stop teasing me.  Or I will… you just need to stop.  At least right here, right now.” 

Peter squeezed her and asked “but maybe later?  I know I would like that.  And I am glad you would still find me sexy if I had metal braces.  I would hate for you to hate your surprise.”

Sarah pushed herself away from Peter and turned to face him.  She asked “what are you talking about?”

Peter smiled at her and said “gosh, I am just so bad at surprises aren’t I?  But I am glad to hear that you would be ok with it if I somehow ended up in full metal braces.”

Sarah was staring at Peter with a surprised look on her face.  She asked “wait, are you getting metal braces?  Is that what your little surprise is?”

Sarah then heard Cassie’s voice behind her.  Cassie announced “Sarah, Peter, we are ready for you”.

As Peter stood he smiled down at Sarah and said “why don’t we go back there and find out what Dr. Parker has in store for me.”  As Sarah stood Peter grabbed her purse, and then took her hand.  He turned and winked at her, adding “I just hope it makes you happy.  I think it will.”

Episode 42.

Cassie placed the cheek retractors in Peter’s mouth and then a pair of safety glasses over his eyes.  Without even removing the archwire and ligatures she began popping his brackets off his lower teeth.  It surprised Peter how quickly she finished.  She pulled the braces out of his mouth, showing them to him.  She placed them on a tray then asked “that wasn’t so bad was it?”  Peter shook his head no.  She continued “you really will like the metal brackets.  They are smaller and more comfortable than ceramic brackets.  And less hassle too.  I will finish up by polishing your teeth, making  sure we get all the glue off.” 

Once finished, she raised Peter back up to a sitting position.  Cassie pulled her cloth mask down, showing off her pink Petit facemask and the 4 elastics emerging from the corners of her mouth.  She smiled and said “and there you go!  All free.  For the moment.  Why don’t you go and floss?  It is so much easier to floss normally, without all the brackets and wires.  This will be your last chance for a while.  You may have already seen it when you brushed, but there is floss over there by the sinks too.” 

As Peter stood, Sarah looked at Cassie and asked “can I go with him?  Maybe help?”  Cassie smiled and said “of course!  And take your time. I need to gather up a few things.”

Once at the sink, Sarah picked up the box of floss.  With a gleam in her eye she asked Peter “can I floss for you?”  Peter obediently opened his mouth without saying a word.  Sarah meticulously flossed between each of his teeth.  As she finished his upper arch and transitioned to his lower, she leaned in and whispered in his ear “I am so horny right now.  I don’t know how I will even make it through seeing you get your new brackets installed.”  She then softly bit his ear and resumed flossing.

Once she was finished she stepped back and admired her work.  She said “you have such a sexy smile.  But not nearly as sexy as it is going to be very soon.”  She grabbed his hand and said “let’s go get you some braces stud.”

Back in the chair, reclined and with the cheek retractors and safety glasses in place, Cassie said “since Dr. Parker isn’t done yet, let’s go ahead and get started.  I will etch your teeth first, and then install your brackets, lowers first then upper.  Are you ready?”  Peter looked over at Sarah.  He then turned towards Cassie with a smile on his face and said “I think we are.  I just hope my wife still finds me attractive.”

Cassie had no idea what had already transpired between the two.  As she began etching his teeth, she said “oh no, I am sure that won’t be the case.”  Glancing at Sarah she asked “right?”

Sarah said “oh no, I am sure he will just be the cutest with braces.”

Cassie affirmed “that is right.  Me and my husband are both in treatment together.  I had to twist his arm.  But he did it.  And now he is so glad he did.  And I can tell you, I find him just as attractive as ever.  Even more actually.  You will both be so glad about this.  And I promise you, going through treatment with a spouse is just the best.”  Glancing at Sarah and then back down she said “Sarah, it might take a few days to get used to his new sparkly smile.  But I bet you will grow to love it.” 

Sarah smiled broadly and said “I think I will be just fine with it.  I might even miss them when they are gone.”

Cassie said “that wouldn’t be unusual.  We have a lot of patients that do miss their braces.  Now, they are glad they got them off.  But they also miss them.  It sounds strange.  But it is true.”

Sarah responded “I get it.  I hate my braces.  And I love my braces.  Already.” 

Cassie gave a little laugh and said “and that is completely normal too!  I think all of us feel that way at times.  Even Dr. Parker.  Now, we are done with the etching.”  She looked into Peter’s face and added “let’s get you some braces!  You can join the club!”

As Cassie placed the individual brackets on his lower teeth, Peter cut his eyes over to Sarah.  She was watching him intently.  There was a look of hunger in her eyes.  He could not help but be turned on seeing his wife so excited.  He sat there looking at her while Cassie worked in his mouth.

Cassie leaned back and said “and there is your bottom arch!  I will get it cured, and then we can get your upper.”  After curing his bottom brackets, she started on his upper.  Again, Peter was looking into Sarah’s face. 

Sarah did not notice Dr. Parker walk up behind her.  Nor did she hear her say “Sarah, it looks like Peter is in good hands.  Why don’t you come with me?”  Sarah did not respond.  Dr. Parker placed her hand on Sarah’s shoulder.  She was startled and jumped in her seat.   She turned and looked up towards Dr. Parker.  It was the first time they had come face to face since their initial appointment, before Dr. Parker had braces herself.  Sarah could see she was wearing a Petit facemask.  She also saw a highpull headgear strap over the top of her head, disappearing behind the cloth medical mask she had covering her chin, mouth and nose.  It looked like the same set up she herself had to wear.  Dr. Parker said “I am shorry.  I didn’t mean to scare you.  You were really focushed on that weren’t you” as she pointed towards Peter. 

Sarah blushed and said “yes, I am sorry.  I just love him.  And hope he isn’t uncomfortable.”

Dr. Parker replied “that is shweet.  And banding ishn’t the most fun activity in the world, but Casshie ish very gentle.”  Dr. Parker raised her voice slightly and asked “Peter, you doing good down there?”  Peter raised his thumb.

Dr. Parker said “Casshie ish taking great care of him.  And they are over halfway done.  Why don’t you come with me over to thish other chair” gesturing towards the one Mrs. Evans had been in earlier.  “I want to check your expander.  And I want to talk about shome new optionsh for protraction gear.  Improvements.”

Sarah was hesitant to get up.  She was enjoying it so much.  But she also didn’t think it would seem normal to put up a fight.  Plus, she knew she was going to be enjoying the braces in Peter’s mouth for a long time to come.  At least two years.  Maybe more if she had her way. 

After she stood, Sarah couldn’t resist.  She went over to Peter and leaned down.  Cassie quit what she was doing and leaned back.  Sarah kissed Peter on the cheek.  She said “you are doing so good baby.  And they look so cute on you.”

As Sarah followed Dr. Parker away Cassie said “see, I told you she would like them.”  Peter put his thumb up again.

With Sarah gone, Peter was at a loss where to look.  He tried looking into Cassie’s face.  It felt awkward.  So, he cut his eyes over towards the chair beside him. 

There, he noticed Maria inserting a facebow into Emily’s mouth.  Maria then attached the cervical strap and then high pull strap to it, firmly securing Emily’s bridle.  It looked as if Emily was on the verge of tears.  Maria must have picked up on this Peter thought, because with the straps attached Maria placed her hand on Emily’s.  Maria said “really, they look good.  You look good.  Beautiful.  Now open and close for me?  Does anything hurt?” 

Emily opened and closed her mouth a few times.  And then her eyes welled up.  She shrieked “oh God, they squeak.  They squeak so loud!”  Maria began running her fingertips across the top of Emily’s hand.  Peter noticed the fine blond hairs on Emily’s hand stand straight up.

Maria consoled her “they shound louder to you than anyone else.  But yesh, they are going to squeak some.  The rods on my herbst do the same.”  She leaned in towards Emily and came face to face with her.   She opened and closed her own mouth a few times.  Looking into Emily’s eyes, Maria said “see, mine do it too.  You will get ushed to it.  And I promish you, the springs are better than the herbst.  You don’t have all this metal behind your teeth” as she opened wide and leaned her head back.  She continued “you will get used to them in no time. And you look so good.”  Picking up a mirror she held it in front of Emily and said “here, see for yourself”. 

Emily’s hand shot up over her mouth.  She said “oh God!  It looks like I have two big pimples in each corner of my mouth and a dip in my lower lip.”  She then tried to smile, the forsus springs sticking out of her mouth when she did.  She shrieked “it is so bad.  I look like a robot.” 

Maria put her finger up towards Emily’s mouth.  She placed it on her lower lip where her lip bumper was and said “it does not look horrible.  It makes your lips look fuller.  Plumper.  They look wonderful.  Your braces look wonderful.  And remember, they are only temporary.”  She had been stroking Emily’s hand the entire time. 

Emily said “oh, you are just saying that.  I know you are.  Get the distraught patient out of the chair and out the door before they have a break down and cry everywhere.  I get it.”

Maria leaned in closer to Emily.  Peter noticed their gazes lock together.  He thought it seemed to be a very strange orthodontic appointment.  There seemed to be more going on than just an appliance installation.  Maria said “no, I am not just saying it.  You look amazing.  And if you want to cry, I will be here to cry on.”  After she finished speaking the two remained locked eye to eye.  Maria then leaned in and whispered something in Emily’s ear.  Peter could not hear what was said, but he did see a small smile come to Emily’s face.  As she got up, Maria ran her fingertips up Emily’s arm, and then patted her shoulder as she walked away.

Peter turned his attention back to Cassie.  She noticed him looking at her and she said “two more teeth.”  As she was curing his upper brackets he noticed Maria return to Emily.  She handed Emily a bag and said “you’re done! I put your care instructions in there.  Along with my card. With my personal cell number.  Please call me.  To let me know how you are doing.  I can always make house calls.”  Taking Emily’s hand she said “let me help you up, and I will escort you up front to make your next appointment.”  As the two walked out hand in hand, Peter wondered what he had just witnessed.

Cassie then announced excitedly “VOILA!  You have new braces!”  She held a mirror up so he could see all the new silver covering his teeth.  She continued “All we have left to do is put your wires on.  What color ligatures do you want?”

Peter smiled at her and said “I was hoping Sarah could pick.  Could we wait for her?”

Cassie pulled her mask back down and said “of course!  I need a little break anyway.  I am going to grab a drink.  I will grab you a water.”

As she stood Peter asked “would it be ok if I go wait with Sarah?”

Cassie replied “of course!  I should have thought of that.  I am a dodo sometimes.  I will meet you there.”

Peter stood and began to walk towards Sarah.  As he did, he saw Dr. Parker pick up an even larger and more conspicuous facemask than Sarah had been wearing previously and place it against Sarah’s face.

Someone just pointed out that I have been interchanging Dr. Sanders (the ortho from the last story) and Dr. Parker (the ortho in this story) the last few chapters.  Thanks!  I have gone back and tried to correct it.  But, if I missed one/some, just let me know what chapter/s and where and I will change it.

ETA:  And I went and changed them all to the wrong one.  I have completely confused myself.  I am going to fix it, or try.  For those confused about this story.

Dr. Anderson - Sarah's psychiatrist
Dr. Higgins - VistaView's head honcho/administrator
Dr. Parker - Sarah and Peter's ortho

Now, back to trying to fix it.

There is no mess. And for sure there is not only one person reading this story.

Faults only happen to exist for those who do work.

Keep writing this interesting story!

I am finally getting caught up with my reading again.

If you weren't making mistakes, you wouldn't be writing.

As for people not reading your story, there are many people reading the stories in the forum, they just aren't saying anything. Write the story you want to tell us and we will enjoy it. I figure there is about a 2% comment-to-reader ratio, so you must be doing very well so far.

Episode 44.

Peter and Sarah walked hand in hand into the waiting area.  As they entered, Peter noticed there were several new people sitting and waiting.  Most were looking down at their phones.  Or they were until Sarah and Peter's arrival.  Peter sensed as much as saw all eyes in the room turn and look at them.  Most averted their eyes quickly.  All but one young boy that was sitting beside an older lady that Peter assumed was his mom.  Sitting on the other side of the older lady was a teenage girl that appeared to be his sister.  The boy pointed and said "mommy, what are those people wearing?"

Peter watched as the woman said "Braxton, do not be rude.  Do not point. Do not talk about other people."  She looked at Sarah and Peter and said "I am sorry."  She then continued talking to her son "that is headgear.  Two different types of headgear.  And your mommy will be getting some herself.  So, do not be rude.  Now, let's go apologize to them."

Peter and Sarah stopped walking as the woman stood and drug the boy over.  She smiled at Peter and Sarah and said "hello!  I am Pamela Smith.  You can call me Pam".  Both Sarah and Peter said hello and introduced themselves.  Pam pointed over to the blond teen girl still sitting and said "that is my daughter Kendra.  And this is my son Braxton.  And he owes you two an apology.  Braxton?"

Braxton was looking down at the floor.  He briefly raised his head but avoided eye contact and said "I am sowry."

Sarah was the first to respond when she said "thank you Braxton.  But no apology is necessary.  The headgear we are wearing is eye catching.  And very hard to miss.  And don't worry young man, you are not the first person to point or say something about it."

Pamela said "well, that may be.  But he still needed to apologize.  And I do too.  I am sorry."  The woman turned away and drug Braxton back to their original seats.  Peter and Sarah found two unoccupied seats in the corner and sat.  Sarah said quietly to Peter "he was just so cute.  And now I am missing the boys even more." 

Peter patted her hand and said "baby, it won't be long.  And in two weeks, after they have run you ragged, spilled milk everywhere, jumped in a mud puddle, drawn on the walls with a marker, and gotten in an argument, you might be begging me to take you back to VistaView.

Sarah laughed and said "you aren't right."

Peter pulled out his phone and began scrolling through emails, seeing what fires needed to be put out first.  He didn't notice the woman approach, but he heard "I am sorry to bother you.  But I was hoping I could ask you two some questions.  About having braces as adults." 

Peter looked up to find Pam standing in front of them nervously.  Sarah responded "sure!  I am glad to answer any questions.  And I am sure hubs here will too.  Right boo boo?"

Peter tried to smile and replied "of course!  And let me go ahead and apologize if that was a snarl.  These new braces and headgear are going to take some getting used to."

Pamela sat in the seat beside Sarah and said "so, I take it that's new?" 

Peter responded "yep, brand new.  I literally just got it and these shiny new braces right before we walked out here.  I had cervical headgear before with invisalign and ceramic braces on bottom.  But, I decided to just switch to traditonal braces.  And now Dr. Parker wants me to wear this one at night.  It makes my cervical headgear look like a toy."

Pamela asked "so, you just have to wear it at night?  But, then, why are you wearing it out here?  And if you already had your appointment, why are you still waiting?  And sorry in advance if I ask too many questions."

Peter said "nope, no apology needed.  We are waiting to speak with Dr. Parker.  To talk to her about setting up a consultation for a friend of ours.  She was busy with a patient so Cassie asked us to wait out here.  Sarah and I actually both just got new, bigger, better headgears today.  Her's is a forward pull.  Mine is retractive.  But that would make sense, we are pretty opposite on everything else.  But you know what they say, opposites attract."

Pam laughed and said "I get that.  Me and my husband Marc are oil and water.  But it works for us too.  Anyway, the reason I came over is I am starting treatment today.  Or at least getting my appliances installed, I already got spacers.  Actually, me and my daughter Kendra both are.  She is getting braces and something called a quad helix expander.  And she will have to wear rubberbands to fix her bite.  I looked it all up online, watched some youtube videos and such, and it seems pretty standard for a teen.  But me?  And my treatment?  Oh boy.  Because I am older and my bite is messed up, I have to get a MARPE expander.  It will be drilled into the roof of my mouth with six screws.  It looks terrifying.  The idea is terrifying.  And I will have to wear a reverse pull headgear like your's Sarah.  Dr. Parker didn't mention anything about a strap like that, but she did show me the mask."  She put her hand up and held her thumb and index finger about a half inch apart and said "seeing the headgear and an example of the expander just about made me abandon the thought of getting braces.  I was this close to saying no.  But, my breathing is horrible, I don’t sleep well, I am tired all the time, my jaw causes me headaches and Dr. Parker said if I didn't get it fixed now it would just get worse.  I would lose teeth, all kinds of horrible things.  And, with me making Kendra start treatment, I felt like I was stuck.  I couldn't really back out.  But now, sitting here waiting to be called back to have it installed, I want to run out the front door.  And I can't imagine what it is going to be like navigating life with all the metal in my mouth.  Plus a lisp.  Dr. Parker warned me that at least at first I would have a substantial lisp.  So, please, tell me it isn't that bad."

Sarah smiled and said "well, that story sounds pretty familiar to me.  I also have a MARPE.  And an expander on bottom too.  Plus the headgear that no one can miss.  I am not going to tell you it isn't bad.  The first week is rough.  But, it gets better.  I am still early on, this is our first adjustment, but I think it is worth it.  But, the jury may still be deliberating.  But this babe beside me has made it so much better.  Just the fact he is doing it with me makes it worth it.  Is there anything you want to add babe?"

Peter said "I will just say give it a week Pam.  And then take it day by day.  Dr. Parker and Cassie assured us before we even started treatment that once we got used to everything, the time would fly by.  Definitely get a water flosser.  And extra wax.  And if you can get someone to turn your expander for you, either your husband or your daughter, it will make life easier.  And I bet your daughter would love doing it.  Inflicting a little revenge on her mom for making her get braces."

Pam said "actually, strangely enough, she is excited about getting braces.  I wish I could say the same.  I mean, I was excited when we first came in.  Until I found out what all it would entail.  But you two seem to be surviving.  And, my husband is already teasing me about being a braceface.  And all I have are these annoying spacers.  I am sure he will just love prodding around in my mouth."

Sarah said "I am sure he loves you.  Me and Peter tease each other all the time.  I think it is part of a healthy relationship.  But, I bet when you are really hurting, and I won't sugarcoat it you will be the next few days, I bet he will take care of you."  She took Peter's hand and continued "as Peter was nursing me back to health that first week, I just fell even more madly in love with him, if that was even possible."  She then said "you should talk your hubby into getting braces!  Then you could tease him right back."

Pam said "well, I don't see that happening.  I have already brought it up a few times and he completely rejected the idea.  He said he couldn't get braces.  Not at his age."

Peter responded "I get that.  I was terrified of the idea.  Of what coworkers and clients would think.  And I still am I guess, especially now that I have these metal braces.  But, you know what, most people just don't really care.  They are so self centered and worried about their own problems, they don't pay attention to other people's mouths.  And so far, when they have said anything, it has been supportive.  I have found out that a lot of adults have thought about or are thinking about getting braces.  As soon as I got mine, I was astounded by the people that, like you are now, asked me about it.  And it was almost always because they said they had thought about it but were too scared.  I bet the same will happen with you.  I bet you will learn a lot of the people you come in contact with in day to day life will tell you they have thought about it."  Peter pulled his wallet out and pulled out one of his business cards out and handed it to Pam.  He continued "if you have any questions, for Sarah or I, you can shoot me a text or email.  And if you are serious about wanting to get your husband to join you in treatment, I would even be glad to talk to him."

Pam looked from Peter to Sarah and said "thank you both so much.  And Peter, I might just take you up on that.  Now, let me get back over there before Braxton is swinging from a light fixture."

As she stood Sarah said "and by the way, he is adorable.  We have two little boys ourselves.  And they are both a handful.  Pam, you will do just fine.  And like Peter said, reach out if you need to.  Even if just for motivational support.  I am lucky, I have my Peter here to lean into when things are rough.  And because he is going through treatment with me, he gets it.  I realize most people are not that lucky."

Standing, Pam looked down and said "thank both again so much."

She had just made it to her seat when the door to the treatment area opened.  Cassie stepped out and announced "Pam?  We are ready for you and Kendra now."

Pam looked over at Sarah and Peter.  The fear and dread were evident on her face.  Sarah said loudly enough so she could hear "Pam, you are both going to do just great."

Peter added "and Cassie is just the best.  The most gentle touch in the world."  Peter looked at Cassie.  With her cloth mask pulled down, he could see a smile come to her face.  She looked over at Peter and responded "aww, thank you.  And Dr. Parker is just finishing up, she will be out in a minute to get you."

By now, Pam had gotten to her feet.  She slung her purse over her shoulder and grabbed Braxton's hand.  She began to walk towards Cassie with Kendra following behind.  Peter couldn't help but think she looked like someone walking down death row.  He was about to offer another word of encouragement when Cassie beat him to it.

As Pam approached the open door, Cassie smiled at her and said "it is going to be just fine.  I have an expander just like you are getting.  And obviously a facemask too.  It is so worth it.  And I am so glad I am doing it.  You will too".  Pam forced a half smile and said "I hope you are right."

After the door was closed, Sarah looked at Peter and said "thank you."

He asked "for what?"

Sarah said "for being you.  For offering that woman, a complete stranger, support and encouragement.  For giving her our contact information.  For offering to help.  In other words, for being you.  I am so lucky.  I have you to go through this journey with.  Both this orthodontic marathon and the journey of life.  I realize a lot of people don't have that.  I am so lucky.  And grateful."  She snuggled up against Peter and said "that, what just happened, was so sweet."  She then turned her face up towards Peter and with a devilish grin on her face softly said "but don't think it has made me forget what I am going to do to you and that sexy mouth of yours as soon as we get out of here."

Episode 46.

Peter pulled up in front of the doors of VistaView shortly before noon.  He stopped the vehicle and turned it off.  He said "we have arrived.  And what impecable timing, just in time for lunch.  I wish I could stay, but I have to get back to the office.  We have one very irate client."

Sarah reached her hand over and ran her finger along Peter's jaw line.  He was no longer wearing his headgear and neither was she.  Sarah responded "I understand baby.  You spend way too much time on me as it is.  But you know I will miss you.  Thank you so much for today.  Who knew that an orthodontic appointment could be so exciting.  And sexy."  She winked at him.

Standing outside the car, Sarah craned her head up towards Peter.  He leaned down and Sarah kissed him, flicking her tongue in and out of his mouth. She leaned back for air, then kissed him again.  This time she let her tongue explore, feeling around the sharp brackets in his mouth.  She pulled back and stared into his face.  As Peter went to speak she put her finger up to his lips and said "shhh, just smile for me."

He asked "huh?"

Sarah said "don't ruin this baby, smile for me.   Since they won't let me have my phone, I need to take a mental picture of you."

Peter obliged, smiling widely.

After several moments Sarah hugged him.  She said "thank you.  I guess that will get me through the rest of the day.  But, and this is your fault, I am not going to be able to concentrate at all the rest of the day.  I am going to be thinking about you."

Peter squeezed her and said "and I the same.  Thinking of you.  But I will be back for dinner as always.  Now, let's get you going. You have to be famished.  You just burned a lot of calories earlier." 

Sarah smiled slyly and said "you pervert.  Pervert is my job."

Peter laughed and said "come on dirty girl, let's get you some lunch."

Entering the front doors Peter noticed Lakyn was already at the reception desk.  She looked at them and gave a closed mouth smile.  Or Peter thought it was a smile.  It could have been interpreted as a grimance.  With a big smile on his own face, showing off his newly acquired orthodontia, he walked towards her with Sarah.  He said to Lakyn "good morning, or maybe I should say afternoon, Miss Lakyn!  Were your ears burning this morning?  If so, it is because Julia was talking about you.  She said you started your treatment yesterday.  How exciting!  But she said you were hurting.  How are now?"

Lakyn didn't speak immediately.  Instead, her gaze remained fixed on Peter's mouth.  She said "are thosh new?  You didn't have braces on your top teeth lasht time I shaw you did you?" 

Peter gave her a big smile and said "they are brand spanking new.  I just got them this morning.  I ditched that silly invisalign and got me some real braces.  I was feeling jealous of all of you.  And I also got a new headgear.  It is mammoth.  It is called an Interlandi headgear.  But, enough about me, how are you?"

She said "I am hurting.  This expander, theshe schrews, they hurt so much.  And the brackets on bottom are rubbing my lipsh raw.  And the hooksh on top keep digging into me.  And the headgear they gave me hurtsh my chin.  Eating is out of the question.  And I can't talk.  I got called on in clash thish morning and almosht broke down.  I think I made a mishtake."

Sarah rushed over and wrapped her arms around her.  Sarah said "you poor baby.  I promise, it gets better.  And it might not help ease the pain.  But you aren't alone.  We met another lady today that was getting the same things installed that we have.  And I look at Dr. Parker; did you know she is wearing her headgear all the time?  All the time, except when eating and showering.  And Cassie, she seemed to be oblivious to her expander and headgear today.   And I think to myself if they can do it, so can I.  And so can you.  Your speech is not as bad as you think.  I promise.  I am able to understand you clearly.  And it will get better.  And I am here.  Please, let me help.  If there are any questions, ask.  This first week will be a bit of an adjustment.  Just get through the next few days."

Lakyn said "thank you.  I guessh it does help knowing I am not the only one.  How do you manage the headgear?  There is jusht no way I can see me getting in 16 hours a day."

Sarah released Lakyn and said "well, VistaView and Dr. Higgins make it easy on me.  They monitor my wear time.  I have no choice.  That means that I get the pleasure of wearing it out in the facility some.  The first few days people looked at me like I had a third eye or something.  But now, almost a week in, everyone seems pretty used to seeing me in it.  They barely give me looks anymore and pretty much ignore it.  That is how I am doing it.  You know, you could wear your's here.  I am absolutely certain that Dr. Higgins would be in complete support."

Lakyn shook her head and said "ewww, I don't think I could do that.  I would die from embarrasshment."

Peter now spoke "why Lakyn?  You are a beautiful, smart and charming young woman.  Period, end of story.  Who cares what others think?  If they are so shallow and superficial to focus on headgear and not the person underneath, does their opinion even matter?  No, no it does not.  So, if you need to wear it here, then wear it here.  And like Sarah said, you won't be the only one.  Sarah wears her some.  Julia was wearing her's this morning.  You would not be the only one."

Lakyn said "well, I don't know.  I will think about it."

Sarah said "do you have it with you?  Did you get the kind with the larger chincup that slides?  I got a new one today.  It is better, more comfortable, than my first one."   She unzipped her purse and pulled her new hot pink facemask out and asked "does it look like this?"

Lakyn responded "wow, you went with the hot pink.  That is certainly bold.  And yesh, mine is like that.  But not the hot pink.  I didn't bring it, it ish sitting by my shink at home."

Sarah said "it isn't like anyone is going to miss it regardless of color.  So I figured why not go with pink?  I am a bit of a girlie girl.  What color did you pick?"

Lakyn said "I went with white.  I was hoping it would be less visible and obvious.  It really isn't."

Sarah said "I am sure it looks adorable on you.   Lakyn, I am certain all of this seems like a lot.  I know.  I totally understand.  But like bae said, just get through this week.  Once you do, it is all downhill.  Deal?"

Lakyn smiled the best she could and responded "deal.  And thank you."

Peter said "Sarah is right as always.  Lakyn, I will see you again this afternoon."

He turned to Sarah and said "baby, I have to go.  I don't want to, but I have to."  He leaned in and kissed her. 

At the door he stopped and turned.  Sarah was still standing there.  He loudly said "baby, I love you so much.  And I know you will, but please take care of Miss Lakyn."

Episode 48.

The next few days went smoothly.  Sarah and Peter had fallen into a comfortable routine.  And while Sarah was ready to go home, she also had to admit she was happy.  And her mental and physical health had seemed to improve over the previous 10 days.

On Friday morning, she was sitting on the couch, headgear on, watching TV when Amelia entered the room.  Amelia came over and sat, leaning up against Sarah.  Amelia said “you know, I am going to kind of miss it here.  I am excited to go home.  But I will miss it.  I will miss the people.  I will miss you Sarah.  Promise me that we will stay in touch.  Like we talked about.”

Sarah wrapped her arm around Amelia “of course sweetie.  And thank you so much.  You are just the sweetest.  Just the best roomie a girl has ever had.  You have made my time here so much easier and more comfortable.”

Amelia began to cry as she hugged Sarah.  She said “thank you.  This morning is going to be hard.  Having to say goodbye to everyone.  I can’t believe in less than three hours I will be leaving.  After a month, I feel like some of these people are family.  I am so excited to leave though.  To get my life back together.  I am going back to school.  I have already scheduled my classes at the junior college.  But I am scared too Sarah.  I am scared I will fall back into my old habits.  And fall back in with the wrong people.  I feel like a new woman.  But I am afraid I will not be able to resist the temptations of life.”

Sarah wiped Amelia’s eyes and said “life can be scary.  But, you ARE a new woman.  I know you are strong.  I know that you know what to do.  And what not to do.  And I am certain you will do incredible.  Please, let’s talk every day.  And once I get out, fingers crossed it’s Monday, let’s have lunch.  I will make a deal with you.  I will be your support group.  If you will be mine.”

Amelia squeezed her and said “thank you Sarah, that is a deal.”

Peter was having lunch alone at a deli around the corner from his office when his cell phone rang.  He looked down and saw it was from Vista View.  Thinking it was Sarah he answered cheerfully “hey babe.  TGIF.  How goes it?”

Dr. Higgins answered on the other end “Peter, it is Dr. Higgins.  There has been an incident.  Involving Sarah.”

Peter listened in shock as Dr. Higgins explained what had happened.  He jumped up frantically, knocking his unsweet tea over in the process.  He threw two $20 bills on the table and ran.  He slowed enough as he passed the counter to say “there is an emergency.  I left money on the table.”

Peter squealed tires as he pulled out of the parking lot of his office.  He was a sweaty mess.  He had sprinted from the deli back to his vehicle.  He was halfway to the hospital when he heard the siren and saw the blue lights in his rearview mirror.  His first thought was to put the accelerator to the floor.  But reason took over.  He knew a high speed pursuit would not help Sarah.

As he pulled over into a shopping center parking lot he screamed.  Once he had come to a stop he punched the steering wheel.  He sat there fidgeting, license and insurance card in hand, wondering what was taking so long.  He knew the officer was calling his tag in, but should it take this long he wondered.  Eventually, in his side mirror he saw the officer emerge from the squad car.  And he recognized the blond woman.  As Emily approached the drivers window, Peter held his license and insurance card out the window.  She took them, still not having recognized Peter., and said “do you know why I pulled you over?”

Peter answered “yes, I was driving entirely too fast.  But there is an emergency.” 

Looking at the license and hearing Peter’s voice clicked in Emily’s mind.  She said “oh, Peter, hello.  So, what kind of emergency made you drive so recklessly?”
 
Peter relayed to her what Dr. Higgins had told him.  She said “hang on just a second.”  As she walked away Peter could hear her talking into her radio.  A few moments later she ran back to his window.  She instructed him “pull into that space, lock your vehicle, and get in my car.”

Emily made incredible time getting to the hospital, blowing through multiple traffic signals and passing whole groups of cars, her blue lights flashing and siren blaring the whole time.  She came to a screeching halt in an emergency vehicle parking spot near the main entrance.  She let Peter out of the back seat, and he immediately sprinted towards the entrance.  Despite all the gear and body armor that Emily was wearing, she caught up with him just before he burst through the door.  She yelled “stop!”  He took another step.  She grabbed his shirt and said “Peter, stop.”  He did.  She said “rushing in like a maniac is not going to accomplish anything but scare everyone.  Breath.  And we will walk in together.”

As he entered the lobby of the hospital, he was surprised to see Dr. Higgins standing there with another officer.  The two pairs of people began walking towards each other.

Dr. Higgans was the first to speak, saying “Peter, I am so, so sorry.”

Peter, his voice shaking, said “tell me again what happened.  How it happened.  How is Sarah?  And can I see her?”

Dr. Higgins said “she and Julia are both still receiving treatment.  Please, come with me.  Sit.  I will tell you what I have gathered.  And as soon as they let us back to see Sarah, and Julia, we will.”

Dr. Higgins led Peter over to a table while Emily walked away, conferring with her colleague.  Dr. Higgins said “we don’t know why, but Kim showed up today.  Sarah did not show up for lunch.  Julia went to check on her.  She found Sarah, or I guess Kim, asleep on the couch in her suite.  Julia shook Sarah to wake her.  And she attacked Julia.  Or Kim attacked Julia.  She punched her, threw her across the suite.  She was on top of her wailing on her when two of our orderlies arrived.  It took all they had to pull her away and restrain her, and she even got some punches in on them.  We did call the police Peter.  I am sorry, we had no choice.  Both Sarah and Julia were transported here by ambulance.  What I know now is that Sarah, er Kim,  has a broken hand and she injured her back in the struggle.  She was sedated.  She still is.  And they have her restrained.  We don’t know who will wake up.  Sarah or Kim.”

Peter moaned “oh noooo.”  He buried his face in his hands.  Looking up he said “I want to be there when she wakes up.  Can I be there when she wakes up?” 

Dr. Higgins responded “yes, I want that.  Her doctors want that.  We all think it will help.”

Peter said weakly “thank you.”  He then asked “how is Julia.”

Dr. Higgins sadly answered “Julia took a beating.  She has a dislocated and broken shoulder.  She has a broken jaw and her braces shredded her lips.  From the punches she received.  But most troubling they found a broken vertebra in her neck.  The good news is she still has feeling and movement in her extremities, so it does not appear to be a SCI, spinal cord injury.  They are still treating her now.  She is going to have a rough road ahead of her.  Her jaw is wired shut and will be for awhile.  I have no idea how that will impact her orthodontic treatment, and at this moment that isn’t the priority.  They are also putting her in a shoulder spica cast along with a halo brace.  Because of her wired jaw, and the severity of her other injuries, they are also going to place a nasogastric feeding tube so they can be sure she gets the nutrients she needs to heal.  But it is going to be a long road for her, months.”

Peter shook his head back and forth.  He said “I am so sorry.  I am so sorry. Poor Julia.  She is so sweet.  Her and Sarah are friends.”  Looking up fiercely at Dr. Higgins he asked “how did this happen?  How did you let this happen?  To Sarah and to Julia.”

Dr. Higgins said “I understand you are upset Peter.  We all are.  And we don’t completely understand why.  I have already talked with Dr. Anderson.  And he has some ideas.  But there will be time to dissect the how and the why later.  And how to prevent it from happening again.  What is important now is making sure that both ladies receive the best medical care possible.”

Peter looked over in the direction of Emily and the other officer, who were still huddled together talking.  He turned back towards Dr. Higgins and said “so they are going to arrest Sarah as soon as she is physically able?”

Dr. Higgins said “I do not know Peter.  It is certainly possible.  It all depends on what Julia decides.  Whether she wants to press charges.  I am not going to even try to sway her one way or the other.  It is her decision.  She at least earned that from the beating she took.”

Peter sat in silence.  He finally said “I understand.  This whole thing is just a nightmare.  And Sarah was doing so good.  She was so happy.  And feeling so optimistic.  This is just a nightmare.”

Dr. Higgins agreed “yes, it is.  But we will get through it.  And we will give Sarah the best care we can.”

This last bit rubbed Peter the wrong way.  He blurted out “yeah, like the great care you have provided so far.”  Gesturing around the hospital he added “and here we are.”

Dr.  Higgins said “I am sorry Peter.  I truly am.  And know that in my heart I want nothing but the best for Sarah.  I hope you believe that.”

Peter sat there in silence thinking.  He said “I am sorry.  It isn’t your fault.  It’s just… it isn’t fair.”

Dr. Higgins said “no it certainly is not.”

They sat together in silence for several minutes until a scrub clad nurse approached them.  She said “Mr. Jackson?  Your wife, she is still sedated.  And do not be alarmed, but for everyone’s safety including her own we still have her restrained.  But would you like to see her?  Maybe talk to her?  Hold her hand?”

Peter jumped up and said “that is all I want at this very moment.  To hold her.  To tell her it is going to be ok.  That I am going to take care of her.”

Episode 50.

Time seemed to slow for Peter as he sat silently with Sarah.  The only sounds were the occasional beeping of one of the monitors hooked up to his wife and her constant deep breathing.  He did not even know what time it was when he heard the door behind him open.  The nurse from earlier was accompanied by an older gentlemen in a white coat.  As he approached, Peter gently released Sarahs hand, patting it lightly while taking care to miss the IV that was taped down on it. He stood to face the gentlemen.  He didn't even realize it, but he had positioned himself between Sarah and this man, subconsciously acting to protect her from anyone and anything.

The man approached and softly said "hello, I am Dr. Barnhardt.  I am Sarah's attending physician.  I understand you are her husband."

Peter said "yes, I am her husband.  My name is Peter."

Dr. Barnhardt said "it is a pleasure to meet you" as he stuck out his hand.  As they shook Dr. Barnhardt added "I just hate we have to meet under these conditions.  Would you walk with me?  So we can leave her in peace?"

They returned to the same room that Peter had earlier shared with Emily.  The nurse stood in the doorway as Peter and Dr. Barnhardt sat down across from each other.  Once seated, Dr. Barnhardt said "I want to talk to you about Sarah.  First, she will be fine physically.  She has a broken metacarpal in her right hand, what is often called a boxer's fracture.  Once the swelling goes down, we will put a cast on her arm and hand.  It should heal in 6-8 weeks with no complications.  She also has some bruising, from the fight, but these will fade quickly too.  Now, we also did find a crack in one of her vertebrae in her mid-thoracic, along with some tendon and ligament damage in that area.  Nothing is torn thankfully.  And it is only a crack, not a complete fracture.  And surgery will not be necessary.  She will need to wear a brace for 6-8 weeks however to allow it to heal.  We will be fitting her for a plastic clamshell brace.  Later, once we bring her out of sedation, we will take a form and have it fabricated here in our lab.  We are going to keep her overnight for observation.  And we are going to keep her sedated.  I have spoken with her psychiatrist Dr. Anderson.  I assume you know him?"

Peter shook his head and affirmed "yes, I know him well.  We have been seeing him for 10 years."

Dr. Barndhardt continued "good. He has explained Sarah's condition to me.  In light of Sarah's condition, and the fact he is the expert on it while I am not, he wants to be here when she wakes.  I agree with this.  He has explained that we just can't know who will be there when she does.  Whether it will be Kim or Sarah.  And he has explained they are vastly different people.  So, tomorrow afternoon, at 2 pm, we will change out her IV to one without a sedative.  She should become awake and cognizant shortly after.  I would also like you to be here.  Is that a problem?"

Peter responded "no, that is not a problem.  It would have only been a problem if you told me I couldn't be with her.  And just so you know, she has already awakened briefly.  Kim did.  She did not speak, I don't know if she was able.  But I talked with her. I could see the change in her.  And she let Sarah come back.  I think it will be Sarah who wakes.  I know it will be."

Dr. Barnhardt said "are you sure about that?  There is no way she should have been able to become cognizant.  Are you sure?  Maybe you were imagining it?  Or maybe you dozed off and just think that happened?"

Peter said "no, it happened.  She opened her eyes.  She tracked with me.  She lightly squeezed my hand.  Right before she went back to sleep, she even gave me a smile.  As best she could.  It happened.  And it is Sarah resting in that bed now, not Kim."

Dr. Barnhardt scratched his head.  He said "well, I won't argue with you over it.  But it is very unusual.  That should not have happened.  It should not have been possible.  But, if you say it did... regardless, I would still like for you and Dr. Anderson to be present when she wakes.  Now, as to what happens when Sarah is discharged is still up in the air.  Did an officer speak with you?"

Peter replied "yes, she explained everything to me."

Dr. Barnhardt said "good, then I will not waste my time or yours on that ugly business.  Now, I also understand you want to see and speak with Julia.  She is now in a room.  She has agreed to see you.  Do you still want to see her?" 

Peter responded "absolutely."

Dr. Barnhardt looked at the nurse and said "Mrs. Griffith, would you take Mr. Jackson to see her?"  As they both stood, Dr. Barnhardt said "Mr. Jackson, I am sorry we had to meet like this.  But, Sarah will be fine.  We will make sure of that."

After following the nurse through the hospital, they came to another door.  Before entering the nurse said to Peter "she is on a morphine drip for the pain.  So, she may be a little groggy.  And DO NOT say anything that upsets her, or I will have you removed from the room. Are we clear?"

Peter said "crystal".

The nurse opened the door and held it open for Peter.  As he entered, he found Dr. Higgins sitting in the corner of the room.  As he walked in, Julia cut her eyes towards Peter's direction, unable to turn her head.  As he approached Peter took in the site of poor Julia.  On her upper body was a white fiberglass shoulder spica.  It started just above her waist, covering her entire torso and right arm.  They was a bar integrated into the cast, providing support for her casted arm.  Integrated into the cast where four metal upright supports, which were attached to a metal ring that encircled the front two-thirds of her head.  Peter obviously knew what a halo brace was, and he knew that this ring was literally screwed into her skull.  As he approached closer, he looked into Julia's face.  She was tracking him with her eyes as he walked.  He noticed her mouth was very swollen, her lip was cracked in one spot.

He stopped beside Julia's bed.  As he had approached her, he was trying to decide what to say to her in his head.  She made the decision for him when she said "I guessh ya ah hea to tell me nah to presh charges."  As she spoke, Peter noticed her mouth did not move, unable to as it was wired shut.  But, he did notice she appeared to have gauze packed in her mouth between her lips and teeth.

Peter responded "no Julia, that is not why I am here.  And please, do not try to talk. I know it has to hurt.  I love Sarah with all my heart.  And I never want anything bad to happen to her.  But I am not here to talk about her.  I am here to talk about you.  To tell you how sorry I am about all of this.  And to tell you I will do anything I can to try to make up for it.  And to offer you whatever help and assistance I can.  I feel so horrible about all of this.  Please, PLEASE, let me know what I can do for you."

Julia looked into Peter's face.  After a moment of silence she said simply "thank you."

Peter was not sure what else to say.  So he said "I wasn't exactly sure what to say to you Julia. Other than I am sorry.  I thought about starting off by saying 'wow, some people will do anything to get out of work for a few days', just to lighten the mood.  But, I didn't know how you would take that.  Or if it would be appropriate."

To his surprise Julia actually laughed as best she could and then said "owww".  The nurse that was observing said 'please, do not laugh".

After a deep breath, Julia said "you wah rah right nah to start wih tha line.  But ish funny.  I was wannin a vaca, but thish is nah wah I hah in mind.  I am scared.  Ha I am gonna pay ma bills while I am out of work?"

Peter said "don't worry about that.  We will make sure bills are not an issue."

Dr. Higgins had been listening in and added "that is right Julia.  Our workers comp policy will cover your medical expenses.  And as soon as you feel up to it, I will welcome you back to Vista View.  I will find a spot for you while you mend.  So, do not worry about finances.  That is the least of your worries."

Peter reached down and grabbed Julia's left hand.  He said "and whatever you need; bills paid, errands run, household chores, grocery shopping, whatever you need; I offer my humble services.  It is the least I can do.  So, now that that is put to rest, how do you feel?"

Julia said "like I faugh Mike Tyson.  Sarah shou do MMA.  I guessh ish a goo thing I got braces when I did, they sah I would have lostht shome teeth if it weren fah them.  Even if tha did destroy mah lips.  My shoulder hurtsh pretty bah.  My neck doeshn't, but where they screwed thish halo on does.  Really bad."

Peter said "I am so sorry.  Just so, so sorry.  I wish there were two of me.  So I could stay with you and stay with Sarah."

Julia said "go, be with her."

Peter leaned down awkwardly and gently hugged her, being careful to not jostle her or hit the uprights of her halo brace.  As he straightened up he again said "Julia, I AM so sorry.  And I meant what I said.  Anything you need."

As he left Dr. Higgins followed behind him.  In the hallway Dr. Higgins said "thank you.  And unfortunately, I am going to have to leave here soon.  I spoke with Julia's boyfriend.  And between us, I think he is an as**ole.  He said he was too busy to come see Julia this evening.  Can you believe such a thing?  Anyway, I wish there was someone to stay with her tonight."

Peter said "I will check in on her.  I imagine she will sleep.  I hope she does.  She needs it.  But, if not, I will stay with her.  Or at least split my time between Sarah and her.  They are keeping Sarah sedated.  She needs to rest too."

Dr. Higgins asked "so how is Sarah?"

Peter relayed the story he had told Dr. Barnhardt, and also his reaction that it should NOT have been possible.  Dr. Higgins said "I believe miracles happen every day.  Some big, some small.  I am not saying that was one, but I believe you.  And I am glad Sarah is back.  Now, you have my cell phone.  If there are any developments or changes, let me know immediately."  Peter was surprised when the normally prim Dr. Higgins gave him a big hug.  As she hugged him she said "I am sorry I let this happen."

After she released her grip on him, Peter said "this isn't your fault.  I was just upset.  And angry.  You didn't let this happen.  There is only one person to blame, and he is dead.  But thank you.  And be sure and tell Izzy that Sarah and I miss eating dinner with her tonight." 

Dr. Higgins said "even in all this, you are thinking of others.  Of my Izzy.  Thank you.  Now let me go.  But let me know if anything changes or if I can do anything."

For some reason Peter didn't understand, a question popped into his head from dinner several nights before.  He knew it was strange timing, but he asked anyway "what did Izzy mean when she called you 'gramma' the other night?"  Dr. Higgins said "it is complicated.  And a story I don't share with many.  Certainly not guests.  But I will with you.  Just not right now.  Deal?"

Peter said "deal.  And I will do my best to look in on both Sarah and Julia."

As she turned to leave Dr. Higgins replied "I know you will" and then was gone.

Peter went back into Julia's room.  She cut her eyes in his direction and said "Peta, go see your wife."

Peter said "I will.  I promise.   But you are stuck with me a little longer." 

Julia asked "wash Dr. Higginsh able to get in touch with ma boyfren Nathan?"

Peter knew lying was wrong.  Regardless, he didn't think this was the right time for Julia to reflect on her relationship with her boyfriend.  Instead of telling the truth, that Nathan was a shithead who had told Dr. Higgins he was too busy to see Julia, Peter instead said "no, she was not able to get in touch with him.  It went straight to voicemail.  His phone must be dead or he doesn't have service.  She said she would keep trying him." 

Julia soon fell asleep.  Peter quietly exited the room and made his way through the maze of a hospital to Sarah's.  He found her still sleeping peacefully.  He sat in the gloom watching her sleep, reflecting on the day, the horrible day.  He heard a soft knock on the door.  The nurse from earlier entered and said "Mr. Jackson, visiting hours are over.  I am sorry, I need to ask you to leave.  You are free to wait in our waiting area.  She is sleeping peacefully, she will through the night."

Peter knew he couldn't win this fight, so he stood.  Instead of walking out the door though, he first went over to Sarah.  He leaned down towards her face and said "I love you so much baby.  Get your rest.  And I will see you in the morning."  He then gently kissed her on the lips.

As he followed along behind the nurse, she said "also, there is an Officer Milton that wants to speak with you."

She once again took him to the side room where they had met earlier.  He found Emily sitting there, the springs in her mouth sticking out because of the big smile on her face.  As he entered she stood and said "Peter, I have wonderful news.  Julia woke about 20 minutes ago.  She wanted to speak with an officer, so I met with her.  She said she is not willing to press charges.  I don't know what you said to her, but it must have worked.  And that poor woman, she is going to have a long road ahead of her."

Peter exhaled.  He hadn't even been aware he was holding his breath.  He looked over at Emily and said "thank you.  I didn't even ask her not to.  But, I am so grateful.  And she will have a long road to recovery.  But, I did promise her I would do everything I can to make it easier.  I owe her.  And I owe you.  Thank you."

Emily smiled at him and said "you are welcome.  I am just doing my job.  Speaking of which, with visiting hours over, why don't you let me take you back to your vehicle.  And I need to get home, my shift was supposed to be over hours ago.  I am supposed to be wearing my headgear right this minute.  I am going to be in the doghouse."

Peter looked at her and asked "if your shift is over, why didn't you leave?"

As she stood she said "because of you.  And Sarah.  And because it was just the right thing to do."

He followed Emily out of the hospital in silence.  Once at her car she said "ok, this is breaking policy, but why don't you hop in the front seat?"  As she held the door for him "I know it might feel weird riding in the back of a squad car, even though we both know you didn't do anything wrong.  Plus, it will be easier to talk."

As Emily attached her seatbelt Peter said "you said you were going to be in the doghouse for not wearing your headgear.   Who's doghouse?"

Emily looked over at him and replied sheepishly "I think you know.  I don't understand it.  She thinks my springs are cute.  And she loves it when I wear my headgear too.  It is just so strange."

Peter smiled and said "it really isn't that strange.  Sarah is the same way."

Emily raised her eyebrows and responded "really?"

Peter said "yep, I am going to bring it with me tomorrow.  No, I don't plan on wearing it through the hospital.  But I will wear it while I sit with her.  Do you have yours with you?"

Emily said "I do, in my purse.  I will put it on when I get home."

Peter said "why not now?  If I had mine, I would.  Why not, it isn't like either of us is going to be shocked by it.  Or judge the other."

Emily looked at Peter.  She said "Dr. Parker should hire you.  As her headgear motivational speaker.  I can't believe I am going to do this.   Again."

She got out of the car and popped the trunk.  As she got back in the drivers seat she had her headgear pouch in her hand.  She said again "I can't believe I am about to do this."  Using her rearview mirror she guided the facebow into her mouth, then attached the cervical and then high pull straps.  Looking at Peter she puckered her lips and said "muah" and then laughed.  As they pulled out of the parking lot Emily said "I can not believe I am wearing this.  But I am off duty.  And Maria will be so happy to see me come home wearing it."

Peter said "you know, it doesn't look bad.  Just different.  Have you ever heard of an Interlandi headgear?  I got one after you left the other day. It is a beast.  I will show you when we get back to my vehicle.  And it isn't any of my business, but what is the story with you and Maria?  Were you a 'thing' before your appointment the other day?"

Emily said "you are right, it is none of your business.  But I like talking about her.  No, Maria and I were not a thing before the other day.  But, and I can't explain it, something happened between us the other day.  And now we are a thing.  And I will leave it at that."

Peter smiled and said "that is exciting.  And isn't it strange how sometimes great things seem to come from not so great things?  And usually completely unexpected."

Emily said "yes, I guess it's true.  Flowers need the rain to grow."

Arriving back at his vehicle Emily said "we are here."  She pulled a card out and handed it to Peter.  She said "here is my card.  I don't think I will be involved with this case anymore.  It is closed.  It will all just be an incident report in a file somewhere.  But if you have any questions my number is on there."

As Peter got out of the squad car he said "thank you so much.  And hang on.  I promised you something."

Peter unlocked his vehicle as he approached it.  Emily could not see his face as he stood at his open driver's door, so she did not see as he inserted the facebow in his mouth.  But she couldn't miss the huge set of straps that he placed over his head, encircling both the top of his head as well as around the top of his neck.  She unconsciously reached up and felt the straps on the side of her face.  Peter turned and leaned into the mirror.  She watched as he attached the elastics from the headgear to the facebow.  Once done Peter turned and smiled at Emily and said "now THIS is headgear."  As he walked back over to her car he added "and I am not nearly as pretty as you, so I don't pull it off nearly as well.  While you drive home tonight, just know you aren't the only grown-up driving home wearing headgear." 

Emily said "thank you Peter.  I guess we are in this together.  Maybe we need to form some type of support group.  Grown-ups with headgear!  But enough about that, please know I will be thinking about Sarah tonight.  Please, since you have my card, let me know how she is doing.  Give me some updates.  Please?"

Peter smiled at her and said "I absolutely will.  And thank you for the ride.  And for taking my mind off of all this at least for a few minutes.  Actually, thank you for everything today.  You are a good one.  Now, go, you need to get home.  And I will let you know how Sarah is doing tomorrow."

Hopefully the last few chapters answered a few questions.  Such as what the casts are all about.  And just as an FYI, while researching some details on dissociative disorder and autism, I found a real life example of it.  Of a woman who was cutting herself being put into two long arm casts to prevent it.

Hopefully, the story has not gotten too far out in left field and is still enjoyable.  And hopefully I haven’t made too many mistakes.

I check to see if you have posted another chapter every day. Even when I fall behind on my reading, I still check to see what you have added.

Don't worry about the mistakes, they aren't affecting the story. If I see something I feel needs to be fixed, I'll mention it.

Just keep telling the story you want us to read and we'll keep reading it.

You are becoming one of the more prolific writers here and I appreciate your dedication to providing us with an entertaining story to read to take us away from everyday life, even for a short time.

Episode 53.

Peter had been listening in rapt astonishment.  With a pause in the narrative, Peter said “Dr. Higgins, I am so sorry.  I had no idea.  But why…”

Dr. Higgins replied “please Peter, let me finish.  Then if you have questions ask.  This is hard for me to talk about.  I am afraid if I start answering questions I won’t finish.” 

She looked at Dr. Anderson and asked “honey, could you get me something to drink?  A water?”

Dr. Anderson patted her hand and replied “of course sweetie.”

As he stood and left the room Dr. Higgins continued “so Peter, you are a smart man.  Obviously Robert and I are more than colleagues.  I will touch on that with what I am about to say.  But really, that is another story.  I want to finish talking about how Vista View came to be.”

She continued “so, eventually they deemed me no longer a threat to myself and allowed me to go home.  I continued to see Robert weekly.  And he uncovered something in me.  A desire to help others.  With his help, I went to college and got my bachelor’s degree in social work.  Upon graduating I worked as a social work.  The pay sucked.  But that was not a worry.  The working conditions were chaotic.  But I felt I was at least helping people.  And paying my penance.   Because Peter, not a day goes by that I don’t feel guilt about my Sarah Grace.  But at least Robert had taught me how to channel it into something healthy.  Instead of trying to drown out or pickle it with alcohol.

At this time Dr. Anderson returned with a bottle of water.  He handed it to Dr. Higgins and said “here you go sweetie.”  She took it from him and said “thank you honey.”  She unscrewed the cap and took a long drink.  She then continued her story.

“After a year I realized I wanted to do more.  I wanted to focus on addiction counseling.  And I wanted to help more than one person at a time.  I went back to school and got my masters, and then my PhD.

I had a vision.  That vision was Vista View.  With Roberts logistical help and contacts, and the financial backing of the Higgins Fund - it is a philanthropical trust established by my grandfather and chaired by my older brother, Vista View was born.  I would like to say that my parent’s parenting methods worked fine for my two brothers.  They are both very successful.  My younger brother is a world renowned orthopedic surgeon.  And my older brother, who is now retired and focuses his time managing the Higgins Fund and playing golf, was the CEO of two different fortune 500 companies.  No, they were very successful, I was always the black sheep of the family.”

Dr. Anderson stopped her and said “Susan, you are very successful too.  Do not belittle all you have done.  And are doing.  This is not a knock on your brothers, but you have done more to make this world a better place than either of them every thought about.”

Dr. Higgins looked at Dr. Anderson “honey, thank you.”

She looked back at Peter and said “and Peter, you seem to be a wonderful, caring, selfless man.  I think Sarah is so fortunate.  But you are not the only wonderful, caring, selfless man in the world.  But again, Robert and I are a different story, for a different time.”

Looking at Dr. Anderson, she said “but you did break my heart that day you told me you could no longer be my doctor.  Until you explained why.  Again, I don’t want to get side tracked.  Vista View.”

She looked at Peter and continued “so, the doors of Vista View were open.  We had a staff.  And we had patients, excuse me, guests.  But the first few years were a little rocky.  At least behind the scenes.  But, I felt like we were helping women.  Many who suffered from addiction, and all who suffered from some form of mental illness.  After a few years, we really got our feet under us.  And then one day, a new guest arrived.  She was a skinny, anti-social blonde girl in a scoliosis brace who had spent the last year in and out of jail for prostitution and drug possession charges.  Her latest arrest had led to a psych evaluation, which eventually led her to Vista View.  This was Izzy as she liked to be called.

Over the first few weeks I got to know Izzy, at least as much as she would let me.  But watching her, I saw someone else.  I saw my Sarah Grace.  I dug into Izzy’s background.  I found she had been orphaned when her parents, her adopted parents, had died in a car wreck.  Her parents were a Dr. and Mrs. Herbert Sallinger.  He was a pediatrician at the hospital where Izzy was dropped off, a new born wrapped in a pink blanket with a little pink toboggan on her head.  This was before ‘baby dropboxes’, a place to drop off unwanted children, were as big a thing as they are today.  Now many hospitals have them, as do some police and fire stations.  Anyway, someone, no one knew who as this was before the time when there was a camera on every lamppost, had dropped this newborn off in the middle of the night at the hospital where Dr. Sallinger worked.  Dr. Sallinger and his wife were unable to conceive.  He was working the night that she was dropped off and one of his duties was to periodically check the ‘dropbox’.  It is rare that anyone actually leaves a newborn, but that night it happened.  And Dr. Sallinger was who found her.  Upon seeing this little newborn, he fell in love.  He and his wife adopted her.  They named her Issabella.”

Dr. Higgins stopped and took another drink.  She then continued “Peter, I mentioned yesterday I believe miracles happen everyday.  One day, as I watched Izzy.swim I had an epiphany.  I don’t know why.  I don’t know how.  But I knew Izzy was my granddaughter, the child my Sarah Grace had delivered shortly before her death.  But I couldn’t prove it.  Until Robert had an idea.

One day I went to Izzy and asked her if she had ever heard of Ancestry.com or 23 and me, the dna testing businesses that tell customers their lineage.  And of course she had.  You know Izzy, and how excitable she is.  She begged me to let her do it.  That was my hope.  We sent it off for testing.  She was so excited.  But I had an ulterior motive.  And maybe it wasn’t the most ethical thing to do.  But, I had to know.  I also had her DNA and mine testing by another local lab.  They matched.  There was a 99.9% chance that Izzy was my granddaughter.

I couldn’t just tell her.  So, after getting our results back I told her about another DNA database that could narrow things down even further.  I asked her if she was curious who her biological parents where, as long as they were in the database.  She said she wanted to.

A few days later, after much deliberation, I brought Izzy into my office. I had Robert there with me.  He had cautioned me against it.  But once he realized my mind was made up was going to support me completely.  I was more nervous that day than any other time in my life.  I was afraid Izzy would hate me.  Would hate her mother, my Sarah Grace.  But, and maybe it was selfishness on my part, I felt I had to tell her.  Her life story.  Which was also my daughter’s story.

After I told her, she broke down and cried.  I went to comfort her, completely prepared for her to push me away.  Reject me.  Hit me.  I deserved it.  I was prepared for her to tell me she hated me.  That she never wanted to see me again.  But she let me hold her.  And when she was cried out, she hugged me back.  And she called me ‘gramma’.

So, that is my story.  And Izzy’s story.  I love her more than anything in the world.  And I hold myself responsible for her health issues, physical and mental.  There is no doubt in my mind they are the result of Sarah Grace’s alcohol and drug use while she was pregnant.  And Sarah Grace’s alcohol and drug use were because of me and my poor decisions and poor parenting.

Izzy is my second chance.  To try to make right what I did so wrong those years ago.  Everyday when I wake up, my goal is to help women.  And Izzy.  And to give her the life I should have given my Sarah.

Peter, maybe it is just a coincidence that your wife’s name is Sarah.  But I don’t think it is.  I could not save my Sarah.  But we are going to save your’s.”  As she finished speaking, Peter noticed the tears running down Dr. Higgins face.

You are an excellent writer, my friend! There is so much going on, but it all fits together so well. These last few chapters have been really intense, especially the last one. I worry when writing if there is not enough orthopedic or orthodontic content, but they often get more likes than others. I think once someone gets into a story, they like to know more about the characters as people. You are doing this very well! Thanks!!!

Episode 54.

Peter stared at Dr. Higgins.  He wanted to say something.  But where would he even start he thought.  He finally said simply “Dr. Higgins… I just, I had no idea.  I am so sorry.”

Dr. Higgins gave him a forced smile and replied “thank you, but you have nothing to apologize for.  No, I am the one responsible.”  She went silent.  One could have heard a pin drop in the small room.  She finally said “I trust you will not discuss what I have told you with others.  But, I wanted you to understand why I sometimes act like I do.  And you to know I will do everything I can for Sarah.  I completely trust Robert.  I trust him enough to have the thing I love most in the world, Izzy, stay with her.  I also have trust in Sarah.  She is one of the sweetest, most nurturing people I have ever met.  I could tell that immediately by how she treated Izzy.  I trust that Sarah will do her part in her recovery.  And she will not hurt anyone.  Or let Kim come back and hurt someone.  Because I will be honest with you, after what happened to Julia, I am not very fond of Kim.  She is not welcome at Vista View if that is the way she is going to act.”

Peter couldn’t help but smile at this last part.  He said “thank you.”

Dr. Anderson said “so Peter, we are all in agreement?” 

Peter looked at him and nodded as he replied “yes.  But I want to be involved every step of the way.”

Dr. Anderson responded “excellent.  And Peter, you must be involved every step of the way.  What do you say we go to Sarah’s room and sit with her?  It won’t be long until they wake her.”

Peter said “I do have one request.  When Sarah wakes, and I know it will be Sarah, can we please remove her restraints immediately?  She is claustrophobic.  And it rips me up to see her tethered to her bed.”

Dr. Anderson said “I will speak with Dr. Barnhardt.  But I do not see a problem with that.”

When the trio entered Sarah’s room, Peter immediately went to her while Dr. Higgins and Dr. Anderson stood back.  Sarah appeared to simply be sleeping peacefully as Peter leaned down over her.  He said “hey baby, it’s me.  You are going to wake up soon.  Please, don’t be alarmed or scared.  I will explain everything.  Until then, rest.  I will be right beside you.”

He rolled the stool over beside her bed and seated himself.  He took her uninjured hand in his.  He felt her squeeze his hand almost imperceptibly.  He looked at Sarah and said “thank you baby.  I love you too.” 

This caused Dr. Anderson to look at him with a questioning look.  Dr. Anderson approached the bed and Peter gestured with his head down towards Sarah’s hand.  Dr. Anderson said “Sarah, hello.  It’s Dr. Anderson.  And Dr. Higgins is with me.  We will also be here when you wake.  Sarah, if you hear me, can you squeeze Peter’s hand?”  He watched in amazement as he saw her thumb move, gently squeezing Peter’s hand.  He looked at Peter and soundlessly mouthed “it is Sarah”. He moved back over beside Dr. Higgins and whispered “I am almost certain it is Sarah.  She squeezed Peter’s hand.”

The trio sat in silence, Peter holding Sarah’s hand, for the next 15 minutes.  Then, the door to the room opened.  A nurse entered followed by Dr. Barnhardt.  Dr. Barnhardt softly said “we are going to change out Sarah’s IV.  She will wake soon.”

Peter looked at him and asked “I am ok to stay here?”

Dr. Barnhardt responded “yes, you are fine.”  Peter noticed Dr. Anderson move beside Dr. Barnhardt and quietly converse with him.  Peter could not hear what was said, but he did see Dr. Barnhardt nod up and down.

The nurse quickly changed out the IV.  Peter said to Sarah “baby, you will be waking soon.  Remember, do not be alarmed or frightened when you wake up.  You may be a little groggy and confused.  But everything is ok.  And boy, do I have a story to tell you.”

It was about 10 minutes before Sarah began to stir.  Then, she opened her eyes.  Peter squeezed her hand and she looked in his direction.  He cheerfully exclaimed “hello sleeping beauty.  I am so glad you are back.  Please don’t be alarmed.  Don’t try to move just yet, just relax.”

Peter could tell she was still groggy as she looked around the room.  She weakly asked “what’s going on?  Where am I?” 

Peter said “Sarah baby, you are in the hospital.  There was a little accident.  But you are ok.  Just relax.  I will explain everything.”

She looked down at herself and said “what happened to me?”  She tried to raise her right hand to get a closer look at it.  That is when she realized she was restrained to the bed.  With panic in her voice and on her face she asked “why am I tied down.  Oh God, what happened.  What did Kim do?”

Peter leaned in and hugged her.  He said “we will talk about that.  But you are safe.  And Kim is gone.  And they are going to unbuckle you.”  He craned his head around towards Dr. Anderson and Dr. Barnhardt with a pleading look in his eyes.  He saw Dr. Barnhardt nod to the nurse.  She approached the bed.  Peter said “I am going to let go of you for just a second.  So this nice lady can unbuckle you.  Sarah, you have a little boo boo on your right hand, so be careful with it.”

The nurse first unbuckled Sarah’s left wrist, then reached over and carefully removed the cuff from around the splint on Sarah’s right wrist.  When the nurse moved towards the foot of the bed, Peter moved back in and hugged Sarah.  With her arms now free, she sat up and wrapped herself around Peter.  Neither even noticed the nurse unbuckle the cuffs from around her ankles. 

As they held each other, Sarah said “tell me what happened.  Tell me what I did.”  With his right arm Peter stroked her back.  He responded “I will baby.  But first, I just need to hold you.”

This latest chapter gets us away from all the really sad, really ugly stuff.  And back on track with orthodontia.  And even orthopedics.  But I am afraid I have tipped my hand on what lays ahead for Sarah. 

Episode 56.

Peter and Sarah were talking when they heard the soft knock on the door.  They turned as the door opened.  A nurse entered, holding the door for a second pushing a wheelchair.  She first said “good afternoon!  I hope I am not interrupting.  But, we need to get you to scanned for your new brace.  But first, I will remove your catheter.”

As the nurse approached Sarah asked “will it hurt?”

The nurse said “no, it won’t.  Now you may feel just a little bit of pressure.” She continued talking to Sarah as she worked.  She asked “so, how are feeling today?” 

Sarah replied “I am ok.  I feel ok.  I am just down about this whole thing.”

The nurse said “I’m sorry love.  The good news is, your new brace should be more comfortable and less bulky than the one you currently have.  And there we go.  Catheter is out.   Are you ready to go for a ride?”

Sarah replied “Wow, I hardly felt that.  How invasive will getting fitted be?”

As the other nurse positioned the wheelchair beside the bed she responded “not at all.  Technology can be great.  Used to, we would have had to wrap you in plaster, essentially put you in a body cast, to get the mold.”  She paused as she and the other nurse positioned themselves on either side of the chair.  She continued “but now, we just scan you.  And the computer does all the work.”  The first nurse helped Sarah sit up and swing her legs over the corner of the bed.  She told Sarah “careful now” as Sarah gingerly transferred from the bed to the chair.

Peter followed along as the quartet made their way down the hall.   One of the nurses stopped at the nurses station and said “Mrs Jackson, Janet will take great care of you.”  The threesome continued on, eventually getting on an elevator.  As they descended Sarah asked “what kind of brace am I getting?”

The nurse responded “a plastic TLSO with sternal support and shoulder straps.”  The nurse noticed that this didn’t seem to mean anything to Sarah so she continued “it is a plastic brace that will be molded to your body.  Two pieces, front and back, connect with velcro straps. The plastic part will stop underneath your breasts.  Then, there will be a vertical support with a piece that sits on your sternum that will have straps that go over your shoulders.  This will be lighter and cooler than having a one piece brace that covers your entire torso.  Have you thought about what color or design you want? Or do you just want to stick with white?”

Sarah replied “I didn’t even know I had a choice.” 

The nurse said “sure, I can show what all we can do after we get you scanned.”

Sarah said “that really was easy.”

The nurse responded “yep, I told you.  It is so much easier and cleaner than it used to be.  So, let me show you what colors and designs we have.  Peter sat beside Sarah watching as the nurse flipped through the options. 

Once she was done, Sarah said “I don’t know.  What do you think baby?”

Peter answered “whatever it is will look good on you.  But what about the pink?  Or that blue tie dye looking pattern?”

The nurse said “and a lot of patients like to just go with white.  Some put all kinds of stickers on them.  A few have even painted them themselves.”

Sarah thought a minute and said “Izzy’s brace is white.  Let’s just go with white.  Maybe we will decorate them ourselves.”

The nurse smiled “white is always a good choice.  We will get it made this evening.  Tomorrow morning we will get you fitted into it in your room.   Any questions?”

Sarah said “how uncomfortable is it going to be?”

The nurse said “not uncomfortable.  Restrictive yes.  But not uncomfortable.  It can get a little warm, but you will forget you are wearing it after a week.”  Thinking of her headgear, Sarah thought to herself “I have heard that before.” 

Back in her room, just the two of them, Sarah looked at Peter and said again “I am so, so sorry for all this.  You don’t deserve this.”

Peter smiled at her and said “you are right, I don’t deserve you.  I am so lucky.  Baby, this is just a little bump in the road.  I am so sorry this happened.  But we, you and I, are going to make it through just fine.”

Sarah said “this just sucks though.  What I did to Julia.  I really want to see her.  If she will see me.  And what about my headgear?  Dr. Anderson wants me to wear it tonight when I go to bed.  But I don’t even have it with me.  I hate to ask you to do even more, but would you go to Vista View and get it for me?”

Peter surprised her when he answered “No. I won’t.”

Sarah was about to ask why when the door flung open.  Izzy burst through the door followed by Dr. Higgins who was carrying a box.   Izzy sprinted across the room shrieking “Sarah!  Oh Sarah!  I am so sorry!”  As she got beside the bed Peter stuck his arm out stopping her.  Izzy turned her body towards Peter as he said “Hi Izzy!  But be gentle with Sarah, she hurt her back and her hand.”

Izzy looked at Peter and said “yes, of course.”  She then turned her body towards Sarah.

Izzy stiffly bent over and gave Sarah a hug.  With her arms still wrapped around her, Izzy said “Sarah, I have missed you.  But Gramma gave me the best news, we are going to be rooming together.  We are going to have fun.  And I am going to take such good care of you.”

Sarah said “thank you Izzy.  I have missed you too.  And you are going to have to take care of me.  Did Dr. Higgins tell you about my little accident?  And that I will be getting two long arm casts?  I am going to be pretty helpless.”

Izzy released Sarah and straightened herself up.  Sarah couldn’t help but notice how stiff she was, immobilized from her hips to her head.  Sarah knew she would soon be in a very similar situation. 

Izzy responded “yes, she did.  And you won’t be helpless.  I will be there to help you.  And this Kim woman isn’t very nice.  Let’s not let her play with us.”

Sarah couldn’t help but smile at Izzy.  She answered “Kim is very defensive of me.  And she sometimes takes things too far.  But we are working at coming to some kind of understanding with her.”

Dr. Higgins interrupted and asked “Izzy, did you forget about the presents you got Sarah?”

Izzy said “oh!”  She hurried over and got the box from Dr. Higgins.  She carried it over and sat it on the table beside the bed.  First, she pulled a little potted plant out.  Sarah noticed it had thick, waxy, striped leaves.  Izzy excitedly said “this is a peacock plant!  Because of the striped leaves.  Isn’t it pretty?  Just like my friend Sarah.”

Sarah said “it is beautiful.  Thank you so much Izzy.”

As she sat the plant over by the window she replied “you are so welcome!  But you have to bring it home with you.  I saw the other plants in your suite.  We need this one too.”  As she came back she said “there is more!”

Izzy pulled a stuffed giraffe out of the box and handed it to Sarah.  As she handed it to Sarah, Izzy said “she has a long neck too.  Like me.  So, even when I am not here with you, I can be here with you.”

Sarah said “she is adorable Izzy.  Just like you.  And I will snuggle with her tonight”

Izzy said “and there is one more thing” as she pulled out the zippered pouch with Fair Oaks Orthodontics emblazoned on the side.  Izzy said “Peter also asked me to bring this.”

As Sarah took it from her she said “thank you.  I guess even here I don’t get a break from it.”  She then looked at Peter and said “and I guess this is why you said you wouldn’t go back to Vista View to get it for me.”

Peter reached over and put his hand on Sarah’s.  Before he could even say anything Izzy said “I bet you haven’t even been able to turn your expander have you?  How could you?  Can I turn it for you?  Now?”

Sarah said “ugh.  Do we have to?”

Izzy as usual took the question literally and replied “no, we don’t have to.”

Sarah said “no Izzy, we should.  Would you please turn it for me?”  Sarah looked at Peter and asked “but should we do two?  Or make up for yesterday and do four?  I really want to split.  I don’t care what Dr. Parker said, getting a bunch of holes drilled in my palate sounds brutal.”  Before Peter answered she looked at Izzy and said “Izzy, would you make four turns for me please?”

Izzy excitedly exclaimed “of course Sarah!”

As Izzy dug for the wrench in the pouch, Peter said asked “you sure baby?  Is that going to hurt too much?”

Sarah quipped “everything else hurts, why shouldn’t my mouth.”

With wide eyed excitement Izzy held the wrench in front of Sarah’s mouth.  Sarah opened her mouth and tilted her head back.  The first two turns went smoothly.  Peter noticed Sarah wincing as Izzy made the third turn.  Once Izzy had completed the turn, Sarah rubbed her mouth.  She looked at Izzy and said “give me a sec, that one was rough.”  After a few moments, Sarah braced herself and said “ok.”

As Izzy completed the fourth turn a shooting pain went through Sarah’s sinus cavity.  Peter could tell from her facial expression she was hurting.  As soon as Izzy was done and had removed the wrench from her mouth Sarah took a few deep breaths and said “something happened.  Something broke.  I felt it.   And it hurt so bad.  I am afraid I broke my expander.”

Peter pulled out his phone and turned the flashlight on.  He said “let me take a look baby.”  As he shined the light into the roof of her mouth it was apparent what had happened.  He examined her expander anyway.  Once done, he turned off his light and said “smile for me baby.”

Sarah asked “what is it?  What happened?  I broke my expander didn’t I?”

Peter replied “something broke.  But not your expander.  It is fine.  Doing just what it is supposed to do.  Smile baby.”

Sarah gave him a smile and Peter quickly snapped a picture.  He turned his phone so Sarah could see it. Peter said “baby, you said you wanted your suture to split.  And that is exactly what you got.  Look at your cute little gap.”

Sarah said “oh gosh, it happened.”  She went quiet for a moment.  She continued “great, just great.  Because if arm casts, a back brace and headgear aren’t enough, let’s add a giant gap to the equation.  That is sure to make a girl feel pretty.”

Peter said “of all the gaps in the history of gapdom, your’s is the cutest.”

Izzy asked “what happened?  Did I do something wrong?”

Sarah said “no Izzy, just the opposite.  My suture just split.  And it is just going to get wider and wider the more you turn my expander.”  Sarah asked “Peter, would you call Dr. Parker on Monday and let her know?”

Peter said “of course baby.  And this is exciting.  It is a good thing.  A great thing.”

Sarah responded “you are right.  But what timing. As if I didn’t have enough going on.  Speaking of enough going on, I guess I better put on my facemask.  Try to make up for lost time.  Izzy, would you pull it out for me?  And a bag of elastics please?”

Izzy pulled the facemask out of the pouch and examined it.  She said “this is cool.”

Sarah smiled “Izzy, I am not sure that headgear and cool go together.” 

Izzy protested “but it is!  It is helping your smile.  So it is cool.”

Sarah said “I guess you are right.  It is helping my smile, my bite.  Without surgery.  And that is cool.”  She looked at Izzy and asked “Izzy, would you put it on me?  Get a little practice?  Because I certainly won’t be able to myself come tomorrow.”

Izzy lit up and said “I would love to!  I have seen you do it!  I can do it too.”

As Izzy gently held the facemask up against Sarah’s face and attached 4 elastics she said “Sarah, it really is cool.  I wish I had braces and headgear too.”

Episode 58.

There was a soft knock on the door before it eased open.  Sarah and Peter turned their heads in that direction as a nurse walked in carrying something in a big draw string bag.  Sarah noticed the nurse do a double take of Peter, who was wearing his Interlandi, and then of her and her facemask before cheerily exclaiming "Good Morning!  Your new brace is ready!  Let's get you into it.  You will like it so much better than that clunky one you have on now."

Peter moved out of the way as the nurse positioned herself beside the bed.  She undid the straps of the brace Sarah was wearing and helped her out of it.  She then directed Sarah as she fit the new brace on her.  After she had finished her work, tightening the three straps on each side of the brace and then the two that went over Sarah's shoulders the nurse asked "so, how does that feel?  Anything poking or digging in?"

Sarah took a moment to take in the new feel of the brace.  She said "no, I can't feel anything digging in.  But it is so restrictive.  I can't move at all.  And I feel like it is bending me backwards."

The nurse quickly responded "that is the way it is supposed to feel.  So we can get that cracked vertebra all healed.  Now, would you stand and walk with me please.  We can check for chafing as we head on down to the cast clinic.  Dr. Barnhardt has proclaimed you are ready to get your cast."  As she picked up Sarah's chart she corrected herself and said "hmm, I guess I should have said get your casts.  I didn't realize that you had injured your other arm too.  Oh dear, you poor thing.  But time flies.  It will be over before you know it." 

Sarah carefully got out of bed with the nurse's assistance.  Peter could see the concern on her face and said "baby, it will be ok."

As they walked down the hall the nurse hugged up against Sarah providing her support.  Peter followed along behind them.  As they walked the nurse said "you know, I had to wear a facemask back when I had braces.  I think I was twelve.  It was tough, but it was so worth it.  And I think it is great when I see adults working on themselves.  You know, whenever I see an adult undergoing orthodontic treatment, I know they have hope for the future.  Several of my co-workers here have braces.  I have been thinking about biting the bullet again myself."  She turned and smiled at Sarah and continued "and fixing a few of these snaggles.  I wish I had worn my retainers like I was supposed to.  But that ship has sailed.  Kudos to you for doing it."  She turned to Peter and said "you too!  It is so sweet you are doing it together.  So, what's it like?"

Peter asked "having braces as an adult?  Or going through treatment together?"

The nurse said "I guess I meant what is it like having braces as an adult."

Peter said "it is an adjustment for sure.  They take a lot of time.  And they are awkward.  And the headgear is really a fashion statement.  But I have it so much easier than Sarah, so I won't complain."

The nurse asked "what do you mean?"

Peter said "I will let Sarah tell you."

The nurse looked at Sarah as she said "I have expanders both top and bottom.  And hooks that I have to use to hook this facemask to.  You can't miss it.  No one can.  And this strap I have to wear over my head, to try to pull by chin back, is pretty uncomfortable.   I was wearing it 16 hours a day, but now I am supposed to wear it all the time.  After I get these casts I won't be able to even take it or my glasses off myself if I do want to."

The nurse put her arm around Sarah and said "time will fly.  And it will be so worth it.  And good for you both for being so proactive.  One of my co-workers, Nancy, has to wear headgear.  She is mortified by it.  She won't wear it outside her house at all.  And she said because of that she may never get her braces off.  I think it is silly.  She should just own it.  Like you are.  I mean, it is just braces right?  And who cares what anyone thinks?  You are doing this for yourself.  Right?"

Sarah responded "I guess."

Peter then said "no, we aren't just doing it for ourselves.  We are doing it for each other."

The nurse squealed "Oh. My. Gosh.  That is just the sweetest thing.  Just the sweetest."   After a few more steps she came to a door and announced "and we are here.  We will get you fixed right up Sarah."

As the nurse finished up the second of Sarah's two new arm casts she said "it is normal for them to feel warm.  It will take about 20-30 minutes for them to dry.  Because you have both arms in casts, we have done a couple of things to help make things easier.  First, we have used a waterproof liner.  The term waterproof cast is a bit of a misnomer, they are not truly waterproof.  Don't submerge them.  But if they get a little wet it won't be an issue.  Also, they will itch.  Try not to stick anything down your cast to scratch them.  I know it can be torture, but just try to ignore it.  Also, since you are right-handed, we have casted your right elbow at more of an angle than your left.  Because of your fracture, your pinky and ring finger on the that hand are also casted.  But you can still use your thumb, index and middle fingers.  Even with the angle you won't be able to touch your face or head.  But, with utensils you should be able to feed yourself.  Now, a lot of other things you will need help with, but it seems you have a quite devoted husband to help you.  Any questions?"

Peter could see the dejected look on Sarah's face as she said "no, I guess not.  I had an arm cast when I was a kid.  I kind of remember what it was like."   She sat in silence before saying "but it wasn't both arms.  How am I going to live like this?"

As the nurse said "it will be tough at first, but you will get used to it.  Or at least adapt.  I promise.  And it might not help, but you aren't the first person that has ever broken both their arms."

Peter wrapped his arm around Sarah's shoulders as she held her now immobile arms in her lap and said "she is right you know.  You do have the most devoted husband.  And you have a friend that is also going to be right beside you.  If I know Izzy, she won't leave your side.  Baby, this is just a little bump in the road."  He reached over with his free hand and wiped the tear away that ran down her cheek.

Sarah looked at the nurse and said "I look like a freak show.  Like some carnival sideshow attraction."  She started softly crying.

As Peter held Sarah the nurse said "no, you do not.  You look like someone who was in an accident.  And I am sorry if you think I am being mean, but I can walk you around this hospital and show you some people that have real issues.  Life and death issues."

Sarah thought of Julia, of her laying there in her shoulder spica and halo brace, her battered mouth wired shut, and quit crying.  She instinctively tried to raise her arm to wipe her face and was immediately reminded of the fact her arms didn't work like they did just an hour before.  The nurse saw this and stood.  She returned with some tissues which she handed to Peter.   

As he gently wiped away her tears, careful to avoid her facemask and high pull strap, Sarah apologized "I am sorry.  You are right.  There are a lot of people that have it much worse.  And mine is all self-inflicted."  She turned her face towards Peter and said "I need to see Julia before I leave.  I have to see her."

Peter entered Julia's room and softly said "hi there.  There is someone who wants to see you.  Is it ok if Sarah comes in?  She wants to tell you something."

Julia lay there immobile, propped up slightly in bed with her eyes cut in his direction.  She said "yes, I would like to see her.  I need to understand why."

Peter stepped out of the room.  When he stepped back in, Sarah was behind him, appearing to try to hide.  Her head was downcast, her two arms in slings beside her, her posture held unnaturally erect by her new brace as she walked towards the hospital bed.  As Peter got to Julia's bed he stepped to the side.  Sarah stopped and timidly raised her head up towards Julia.

Sarah said "I spent the last day figuring out what to say.  And my mind is now blank."  She went silent a moment and exclaimed "Julia, I am SO sorry.  I am just so sorry.  I feel horrible.  I wish I could do something to make it up to you.  Do something to take it back.  I wish I had never fallen asleep that day.  I wish it were me in that bed instead of you.  I know you hate me.  You have every right to hate me.  But know I didn't want this to happen."  Sarah began crying as she said "please forgive me.  I won't be able to live with myself if you don't. Please?"

Julia softly said "I forgah ya Sarah.  I nah eh washn you."

As the two looked at each other Julia tried to lighten the mood and said "ah it looks la I washn tha onnee wah to take a beatin."  She then tried to smile at Sarah through her clenched jaw and said "come ere, leh me gih ya a hug wi my goo arm."

Sarah approached the bed.  She tried to get her arms out of the slings and failed.  Peter stepped over and helped her free them.   Sarah then gently leaned over at her waist and gave Julia an awkward hug.  Julia wrapped her arm around Sarah and squeezed her tight.

Julia said "ish ok."

After they held each other Sarah stiffly extricated herself from the hug.  She smiled at Julia and said "you don't know how much it means to hear you say that.  Again, I am so sorry about all of this.  And I promise, I will find a way to make this right."  A smile then came to her face.  As she looked down at herself and then back at Julia she joked "don't we make a pair.  We have one good arm between us.  You should just come live with us at Vista View."

I apologize if this story got over in the ditch with too much monotonous dialog. I hope I can pull it back into the road.  And despite me mailing it in, I hope y’all are still somewhat enjoying it.

Thank you. 

(Also, I love to fish.  And while one can’t eat a compliment, I sure as hell enjoy catching one.)

Episode 60.

As the two women hugged, Peter leaned over towards Dr. Higgins and softly asked "was this your idea?  If so, thank you."

Dr. Higgins whispered back "I can't take credit for this.  It was all Izzy's idea and planning.  I am proud of her.  I don't think she would have been able to, or even tried, a year ago.  She has come a long way.  I owe Sarah a debt of gratitude for that I believe.  Izzy has really blossomed since Sarah got here and befriended her."

Peter said "well then, I owe Izzy a big thank you."  He watched as Izzy drug Sarah over to the group of girls.  Sarah was thanking them, giving some of them awkward hugs.  When she got to Molly and Kyndee he could hear Sarah say "girls!  I had no idea you had to wear headgear too.  And you certainly didn't have to wear it on my account.  But thank you.  And who is our new friend?"

Molly said "Izzy told us about your accident, your fall, how you hurt your back and broke your arms.  And then on top of that, she told us your orthodontist was making you wear your headgear 22 hours a day now.  This is the least we can do.  Plus Izzy promised us free cake" and laughed.  She continued "but seriously, anything I can do, please let me know.  I think I speak for everyone here when I say that." 

Kyndee chimed in "absolutely, anything you need.   And headgear is in right now."  She gestured with her head towards Peter and added "see even the cute guys are wearing it now."  Sarah turned towards Peter and smiled.  He smiled back at her.

Sarah said "he is cute isn't he.  And sexy.  Especially with that headgear on."  She turned back towards the girls and said "don't ya think?" 

Kyndee said "he is.  I have a little thing for older guys.  It is a good thing you already sunk your claws into him Sarah."  She then turned toward the petite blonde that Sarah did not know.  Kyndee said "Sarah, this is Kayla.  She is new here, she just checked in on Friday afternoon.  But she has fit right in with the rest of us crazies."

Sarah stuck out her right arm and said "Kayla, it is nice to meet you.  Don't listen to her, we aren't all crazy.  Just Kyndee."  Kyndee threw her head back and laughed, showing the TPA appliance that ran along the roof of her mouth.  Sarah smiled and said "see, crazy as a bed bug.  But a sweet bed bug.  And Kayla, that is one sharp looking facemask you have on.  But you don't have to wear it on my account.  Thank you for doing it though.  For someone you didn't even know.  Surely you don't need to wear it full time too?  We don't have the same orthodontist do we?"

Kayla very gently reached out and took Sarah's casted hand in hers.  Sarah said "don't worry, you aren't going to break it any more." Kayla smiled and gave a light shake.

She said "It ish a pleashure to meet you.  And no, I don't go to Fair Oaksh.  The girls told me a little about your treatment.  And asked me about mine.  We have sort of bonded over braces.  Get it, bonded?"  She laughed at her joke and continued "but my orthodontisht may be as tough as yoursh.  I don't have to wear my facemahsk but 12 hoursh a day.  But, at my lasht appointment he inshalled a torture device in my mouth."  Kayla opened her mouth and pointed at the appliance behind her bottom teeth and said "it ish a tongue rake.  It shucks.  It ish to keep my tongue from pushing on my teeth.  Since I got my exspander, my tongue doesn't really fit in my mouth anymore.  It just pushes on my teeth.  So he inshtalled this rake to stop my tongue from doing that.  But sho far, it mainly just stabs it.  And not only that, I have ramps bonded behind my top teeth.  They keep me from biting off my bracketsh.  But really, they are like little shark teeth.  They alsho poke the stew out of my tongue.  Along with the exshpander in the roof of my mouth, I can't talk worth a flip anymore."

Sarah said "oh, you poor thing.  I get it.  I have an expander on top and one on bottom.  It took me a while to be able to talk.  But you sound fine.  And I just know you will get used to it.  So, how are you liking it here so far?"

Kayla responded "it ish nicsh. The facility, and also everyone I have met.  I know it ishn't really a resort like they told me, but it ish nicsh.  And is it weird that I was so glad to find some other people here that also have bracesh?  I always am nervous meeting new people anyway.  Now with all thish metal in my mouth it is even harder.  I was glad to meet Molly and Kyndee.  And now you.   I don't feel so alone."

Kyndee said "don't forget about Meredith.  She doesn't pal around much with anyone.  But she has braces too.  Oh, and Mrs. Simpson does too.  You probably haven't met her yet, but she is a counselor here.  No Kayla, you are definitely not alone."

Sarah said "and don't forget about Lakyn at the front desk.  Her treatment seems almost identical to mine.  And poor Julia."  Sarah went silent as her mind drifted to Julia, thinking of her alone in her hospital bed.  Broken and battered, held together with steel pins, steel wires, and unyielding white fiberglass.

Kyndee asked "what happened to Julia?  I heard she was in some kind of accident too.  And she is still in the hospital?"

Sarah was trying to decide how to answer these questions when Izzy burst in amongst them.  She wrapped her arms around Sarah again and said "I am so glad you are back!"  Letting go of her she looked at the others and asked "what ya talking about?  I heard braces".

Molly said "Izzy we were just commiserating about being adults with braces.  And headgear.  Lucky you don't have to worry about that though do you."

Izzy beamed and said "Not yet!  But I hope I do.  I have an orthodontist appointment next week!   Sarah set it up for me.  I really want braces.  I want a pretty smile.  My teeth are so crooked.   Plus, I think braces are cute.  Even the headgear.  I didn't even know there were so many different kinds.  I so hope I can get braces too.  And if I have to wear headgear, I will wear it proudly.  Just like all of you.  Now, let me go check on the other guests."

Kyndee's mouth was wide open in astonishment as she looked at Sarah. Kyndee quietly said "go check on the other guests?  Sarah, what have you done to Izzy?  She is like a different person since you got here.  In a good way."

Sarah said "I don't know, I didn't know her before.  But I think she just needed a friend.  Someone to talk with.  To do things with.  I take it she was a bit of a loner before.  Maybe her whole life."

Molly said "she absolutely was.  And I hate to admit it, but none of us paid her any attention.  Other than the fact that Dr. Higgins seems to dote on her, Izzy was pretty easy to miss before.  She has really come out of her shell here lately.  Don't take this wrong, she is still quirky.  But she is fun too.  And sweet.  We all like her.  And you too Sarah.  Or we wouldn't all be here."

Sarah blushed slightly and said "awww, thank you girls.  You know how to make an old lady feel pretty special."

At this time, Peter walked up holding the box he had been carrying.  He apologized saying "I hate to interrupt you lovely ladies.  But Sarah baby, I need to run check on the boys.  I will call later this evening.  In the meantime, have fun.  This does look like a party."  He pulled the plant out of the box and said "I will just put this here for now" as he placed it on the side table.  He then pulled her Fair Oaks pouch out and placed it beside it and then put the box on the table.  He pulled the stuffed giraffe out last and said "baby, I am so glad you are ok.  And you girls are so sweet for doing this.  Thank you."  He looked at Sarah and said "we will talk tonight.  But first, let me go tell Izzy goodbye.  And let her know that we took great care of Missy the Giraffe."

Before he left Kyndee said "Mr. Jackson, that is some fancy looking headgear you have.  It is quite fetching on you."  Peter blushed a little before Sarah playfully said "hands off Kyndee, he is mine."  As Kyndee laughed Sarah stepped beside him and leaned her head on his shoulder.  She said "isn't that right baby?"

Peter put his arm around her and said "that is right."  He said "sorry Kyndee, but my heart belongs to another."  Kyndee laughed again and said "see, it's like I always say, all the good ones are already taken." 

Peter said "I think that is my que to make like a tree and leave.  You girls have fun."

Sarah watched him as he walked over to Izzy.  She couldn't hear what was said over the noise of the assembled group but she did see Peter hold up the stuffed animal as he spoke.  Izzy took the toy and wrapped it in a bear hug.  She could see Izzy say something in return.  To Sarah, it looked like "thank you."  Then, to Sarah's surprise, Izzy leaned in and kissed Peter on the cheek.  Peter gave her a hug and then turned to walk back to Sarah.

As Peter approached the group he said "Izzy is so glad we remembered Missy.  And took good care of her.  And she loves the name you gave her baby.  She said it sounds a lot like Izzy.  I told her that wasn't just a coincidence.  And I am sorry, but you may have just lost Missy." 

Sarah laughed and said "whatever makes Izzy happy makes me happy.  And you just made Izzy very happy.  Thank you.  Now go.  Tell the boys how much I love them and miss them."

Peter looked at the empty box and said "why don't I just leave that as a trash can for you girls."  As he turned he said "you girls try to stay out of trouble."

As they watched him leave, Kyndee said to Sarah "I hate to see him go, but I love to watch him leave."

Sarah said "Kyndee, he IS my husband." 

Kyndee said "I know, and a cute charming one at that.  But he is swimming in shark infested waters here Sarah."

Sarah rolled her eyes and said "you are just incorrigible.  Plus, you two might get your headgear stuck together anyway."  Kyndee laughed and said "I would love to have my own Peter to test that out on."

As Peter approached Dr. Higgins he said "I need to leave.  Would you escort me and let me out?"

As they walked Dr. Higgins said "Sarah seems in better spirits.  I am glad.  I just hope we don't have any setbacks." 

Peter said "I don't think you will.  In fact, I think this whole ordeal might have been a breakthrough for Sarah.  And Dr. Anderson.  I think we have been approaching this all wrong."

Dr. Higgins raised her eyebrows and asked "really?"

Peter said "yes, I think we have viewed Kim as the enemy all these years.  And she isn't.  We don't need to try to fight her like we have been.  We need to include her in Sarah's treatment.  I am no doctor.  But I am Sarah's husband.  And I think I know Sarah as well as anyone.  And I think besides Sarah, I know Kim as well as anyone."

Stopping at the door, Dr. Higgins stared at Peter.  After an uncomfortable silence she asked "do you remember when I said Robert was brilliant?"

Peter said "yes."

Dr. Higgins said "and do you know why he is brilliant?"

Peter said "well, he is obviously very smart and well trained."

Dr. Higgins said "that he is.  He is probably the smartest man I have ever met.  And he is well trained.  And up to date on all the latest research, theories, those type things.  But that is not why he is brilliant.  He is brilliant because he is humble.  He is not so arrogant, like many in the medical field, to think he knows the right answer every single time.  He is not so arrogant to think he can never be wrong.  He listens.  He cares.  He adapts.  If we have been doing things wrong, he will change that.  He WILL do what is best for Sarah.   As will I.  I have total faith in that.  I hope you do too."

Peter said "I do.  But still, I would like to talk with him before he meets with Sarah on Tuesday.  I hope he will."

Dr. Higgins said "he absolutely will.  And if it is ok, I would like to be a part of that conversation."

Peter said "absolutely." 

Dr. Higgins leaned in and hugged Peter.  She said "good."  As she released him she asked "if you have a second more, I have a couple questions for you.  They are kind of off the wall."

Peter responded "fire away."

Dr. Higgins said "earlier Izzy and I were filling out the forms online for her consultation next week.  She is so excited.  And she kept pestering me that I should get a consultation too.  I know I am too old for it.  But how bad is getting a consultation?  I am thinking about doing it.  Just to shut that child up.  But I will be honest, it scares me.  Is it bad?"

Peter said "no, not at all.  They will take some measurements, x-rays, poke around a little.  But mostly Dr. Parker will just examine your mouth, teeth, and bite and ask what bothers you with your smile and what you would like to fix.  And they offer free consultations.  You should do it."

Dr. Higgins said "I will think about it.  I mean, it would make Izzy happy.  And what's the worst that could happen right?"

I think we know what could happen... And treatment is always more difficult the older one gets.

I hope what could happen does happen.

It is uncanny how in real life, braces do seem to run in packs.  One person will get them and that seems to give others the courage to do it as well.  I don't know who started it where I live, but there was about a 10 year period where it seemed like all the women in their mid 20s to mid 30s got them.  Most for the second time.  It seemed like little cliques of them got them together.  One would get them, then her friend, then another friend, and so on.  At least that was my experience.  So, why wouldn't that happen in my stories too?

Sadly, we all do have to wake up from dreams.  The last woman I know that had them got them off last week.  She was late to the party.  And now, there is no party at all.   

Well, other than that thing I am working on.  Which will be fun.  Even if I know they aren't real.

Episode 62.

The next afternoon Peter followed along behind Dr. Higgins.  They entered a foyer he had not seen before.  He knew that Dr. Higgins lived on the premises in a private residence of her own.  The design of the area was much different than the more sterile suites that the guests occupied.  He thought this must be her home.

She confirmed this with “so, this is a little unusual Peter.  I try to maintain a strict divide between my work life and my personal life. But, I told you I would do anything to help Sarah.  And Robert thinks our study would be a much more comfortable environment for what he wants to try today.”

As Peter followed along he replied “thank you very much.  And you have a nice home.”

Dr. Higgins replied “thank you.  It is a sanctuary for me.  And I hope it will be a sanctuary for Sarah.  And Kim.”  As she opened another door she announced “and we are here.”

As Peter entered the rich, wood paneled room he saw Sarah sitting stiffly on the edge of a couch speaking with Dr. Anderson.  Upon seeing Peter, Sarah rose from the couch.  Peter rushed to her and wrapped her in a hug.

He said “baby, I did what you told me.  I stayed away.  But it was so hard.  I miss you.”

She nuzzled her facemask encumbered face into his chest and said “I miss you too.  But the girls have been so sweet to me.  They are taking such good care of me.”

After a moment, Peter let go of Sarah and stepped back.  As he gazed at her she asked “what are you doing?”

He smiled and said “enjoying the view.”

She replied “hmph, you are funny.  I look like a malfunctioned lawn chair.”

Peter said “that is so not true. And look at your casts!  They look like works of art.”

Sarah smiled sheepishly and responded “I hate these stupid things.  But, Izzy and the girls have had so much fun decorating them.  I am trying to find any little ray of sunshine in all this.  And I am a big canvas.”  She pulled up the sweatshirt she was wearing.  Her previously white back brace was now a kaleidoscope of color.  She continued “Izzy is quite the artist.”

Peter said to her “I can’t wait until I get a chance to explore it up close” and winked.

Dr. Anderson interrupted and said “Peter, thank you so much for coming.  As we discussed, I want you involved in this.  Especially as I want to speak with Kim.  Peter would you help Sarah remove her headgear and get her comfortable on the couch.”  After removing Sarah’s facemask and elastics he helped her recline on the couch, arranging the pillows that Dr. Higgins had provided.

Peter asked “is that comfy baby?”

Sarah said “I think as comfortable as possible with two long arm casts and a back brace.  Thank you honey.”

As Peter moved over to a chair beside Dr. Higgins, Dr. Anderson stated “Sarah, I am now going to hyponotize you.  I want to speak with Kim.  Are you ok with this?”

Sarah sat in silence. 

Dr. Anderson asked again “Sarah, are you ok with this?”

She weakly nodded and said “if you think it is ok.  I am just nervous.”

Peter went and knelt down beside her and took her left, undamaged hand.  He said sweetly “baby, I will be right here.  Right beside you the whole time.”

It took several minutes before Sarah seemed to attain a hypnotic state.  If appeared as if she was simply sleeping.  Until Dr. Anderson spoke.

Dr. Anderson said “Kim, will you speak with me?”
Sarah’s eyes opened.  With a cold stare she turned her head in Peter’s direction.  He simply smiled back at her.  She then turned her head towards Dr. Anderson and glared at him.

Dr. Anderson asked “Kim, is that you?”

Sarah did not speak.  She continued to glare at Dr. Anderson with a look that could kill.  Dr. Anderson continued “Kim, I am not here to hurt you.  I am here to help you.  And to apologize to you.  Will you speak with me?”

She shrieked “why should I?  I hate you.  You want me dead.”

Excellent chapters! Now we are getting to know Kim. Very interesting.

Episode 64.

Friday morning, as Melanie slid Sarah’s glasses onto her face, Sarah said “Melanie, if you ever get tired of nursing, you have a future in makeup and nails.  Seriously.  You are so good.  I would have never tried such a bold look, but it really does look amazing.  I am going to have to take some notes on what you do before I leave.”

Melanie smiled and said “thank you.  It is all about accentuating what you want to draw attention to.  Your eyes are amazing, makeup just helps them to pop.  And makeup is good for concealing the flaws. That is why I never wear bright or bold lipsticks.  I don’t want to draw attention to my mouth and my crooked smile.”

Sarah said “hogwash, you have an adorable smile.  But if it bothers you, I do know a person.”

Melanie said “I don’t know.  It just seems like a lot.”

Sarah replied “honestly, it is a little annoying.  And painful.  And embarrassing, at least the headgear is.  And this gap”. She gave a smile and continued “it just keeps growing.  But it is worth it.  I keep telling myself it is.  It is a process though.  But seriously, my headaches have gone away.  I didn’t even do this for aesthetics really.  But, a bonus is going to be straight, pearly whites.”

As Melanie attached Sarah’s facemask, Sarah asked “it may be rude to ask, but how old are you Melanie?  What?  Twenty-five?”

Melanie answered “twenty-eight.”

Sarah replied “oh to be that young again.  Seriously, the younger you are the easier it is.  And the sooner you start the sooner you finish.  Plus, a consultation is just that.  There are no commitments.  Do it, schedule a consult.”

Melanie said “ok, I will.”

Sarah exclaimed “Yay!  Good for you!  You will be so happy”.

As Sarah stood Melanie asked “what if they tell me I need headgear?”

Sarah said “aww, it isn’t that bad.  And I don’t want to tattle on anyone or tell secrets, but you would be surprised at the number of people who have to wear headgear.  Maybe even guests and employees right here at Vista View.  Changing gears, did Dr. Higgins say why she wanted to see me this morning?”

Melanie shook her head back and forth and said “nope, no idea.  But she didn’t seem upset or anything.”

After Melanie had knocked on Dr. Higgins’ door Sarah fidgeted.  She looked at Melanie and asked “why do I feel like I am in trouble?”

Melanie didn’t have a chance to answer.  The door swung inward and Dr. Higgins  said “Good Morning!  Sarah thank you so much for seeing me so early!  And Melanie thank you for bringing her.”

After both had offered a good morning reply, Melanie excused herself to continue her rounds.  As Sarah followed behind Dr. Higgins she asked “I hope I didn’t do something wrong.”

As Dr. Higgins sat behind her desk she said “goodness no, just the opposite.  Please, sit!  You have been doing so good.  So has Kim.  Your second session yesterday was so productive I wanted to surprise you this morning.  You have a doctor’s appointment this afternoon.  To get your casts off.  You will still need a short arm finger spica for your right hand.  But no more long arm casts.” 

Sarah was a bit stunned.  She replied “Wow…. That is great!  And just when I was getting a little used to them.”

Dr. Higgins smiled and said “well, if you want to keep them for another week…”

Sarah said “no, absolutely not.  Thank you!”

Dr. Higgins responded “don’t thank me.  Thank yourself.  And Kim.  But most of all Robert.  Now, for my second order of business.  I have two favors to ask of you.  First, Julia is going to be moving into Vista View this afternoon.  She is being discharged today, and there is no way she can take care of herself.”

Sarah asked “but what about her boyfriend Nathan.  Can he not help her?”

Dr. Higgins replied “ex-boyfriend Nathan.  And no, he won’t.”

Sarah’s mouth dropped open.  She asked “he broke up with her?  With everything else going on?  What an as**ole.”

Dr. Higgins nodded her head and said “yes.  It is a very sore subject for me.  Her physical wounds will all heal.  Right now I am more worried about her emotional wounds.  Will you spend some time with her?”

Sarah responded “absolutely.  This is all my fault.  Just point me in the right direction.”

Dr. Higgins answered “I thought you would say that.  And I don’t think you will need any pointing.  You will instinctively know what to do.  I just want you to tell me if there is anything, anything at all that you or her need.  Agreed?”

Sarah nodded and replied “agreed.”

Dr. Higgins smiled and said “thank you.  Now for favor number two.  You are still planning to go with Izzy and I for her consult on Tuesday aren’t you?”

Sarah replied “absolutely.  I wouldn’t miss it.  She is SO excited.  Plus, Dr. Parker wants to check my gap progress.”

Dr.  Higgins said “wonderful, I want you there for moral support.”

Sarah laughed and said “Izzy will only need moral support if they tell her she doesn’t need braces.”

Dr. Higgins pursed her lips and said “the moral support is for me.  Izzy talked me into it. I am powerless to say no to that girl.  I had our general dentist forward our records over to Fair Oaks.  Dr. Parker called to discuss our files.  She warned me that due to my age and what she saw in my file that my treatment plan might be intensive and time consuming.  No, the moral support is for me.”